Adventures in Japan

As soon as I arrived I heard, why Japan? From a local.

Well, because there is such a graceful elegance to the culture. A politeness in efficiency that makes navigating easy and there is so much to experience from the food to the sights to the culture, lots of shrines and Sake. ;)

All in all my flight from LA to Tokyo to Hong Kong and back was 750 dollars. A price comparable to what I’ve paid traveling to the midwest or east coast from LA. Good job Kayak.

After getting off the plane, my friend, who I’ve known since I was 15 met me in the terminal as she came in from Chicago.

Ah, the train systems. Yes.

Where the F do we go? It felt like a video game. Ding ding ding. At first it was like a puzzle in disarray, then all the pieces fit into place.

I’ll call my friend savvy navvy because it was quite a relief to not have to be navigating the whole time thanks to her clever research.



We stayed at the Prince Park tower for a relatively good rate. Little did we know it was a holiday and were wondering why everyone was dressed so snazzy. 7-5-3  is a traditional rite of passage and festival day for three- and seven-year-old girls and three- and five-year-old boys, to celebrate the growth and well-being of young children. How jubilant. We saw many people dressed up with their children in traditional colorful Japanese Kimonos and outfits.


We stopped at must see Shibuya crossing which was a bit slower than usual given the observance of the holiday, nonetheless it was still busy.

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We then took the train up to Shinjuku and walked around the Shinjuku-Gyoen gardens, peaceful, zen-like and intricate classic Japanese gardens. We walked over to Hanazono shrine, hidden between the city scape. Peaceful and moving as families were there celebrating.

IMG_1213 (1)We walked around parts of Shinjuku and found alleyways with grilling Japanese kebabs.IMG_1236 (1)The Tokyo tower lit up for France. I was holding intentions for peace, healing and love. For Paris as well as the many attacks that have been happening worldwide.


DAY 2: Tokyo

We decided to head to Harajuku, famous for teenage pop culture and quirky, colorful displays in fashion. Walking down Takeshita. We stopped at several stores, fashion forward.IMG_1283 (1)

IMG_1327 (1)Then we meandered over to Meiji Jingi shrine and observed a classic wedding taking place. Meiji Jingi sits on hundreds of acres and was built during the time of the enlightened era in Japan by Emperor Meiji and his wife, Empress Shoken.IMG_1291 (1).jpgIMG_1308

Before heading back to the hotel, we stopped at a street vendor. I had to try Takoyaki after my curiosity was piqued, it was super scrumptious, melting in my mouth. Octopus rolled and topped with cheese and spices and sauces that I have no idea what they are called.


After resting and regrouping we went to dinner at a European restaurant where we met a group of Japanese guys, who were a bit toasted and all kept exclaiming “Pasta”. Which may or may not have the same meaning translated from Japanese to English. We chimed in, still trying to figure out what it meant.

IMG_1246 (1)Day 3: Kamakura

A beautiful reprieve from the bustling and busy city. Again navigating the trains we took one an hour outside of the city to Kamakura, which was once the political center of Japan in 1192.

IMG_1354 (1)There is much historical significance and when walking through the quaint and cozy streets it feels much different than Tokyo. Below are Samurai swords.


We went to Hasedera temple, devoted to Kannon, the Goddess of mercy and the Great Buddha, which both were quite impressive in their size as well as antiquity. There were tunnels we had to bend down into the dark into several passageways, twisting and turning, each stop temples and tiny statues everywhere. It was damp and earthen with smell of antiquity. IMG_1389 (1)

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Day 4: Kyoto


With our well used purchase of the JR ticket we headed to Kyoto on the bullet train. I was excited to experience the bullet train which averages about 200 mph. We arrived and it was raining and a bit chilly, for lunch we went to a nearby place called Kamo which had vegetarian options. I then went wandering into Kyoto and found several bemusing shops and had an acupuncture treatment that was so very thorough.


We ate at a little treasure that night, what we found out was an old Geisha house turned into restaurant. This special place had different rooms, sliding doors and maintained a quietness, it felt very decadent, secretive and elegant. Which is fascinating given that Kyoto is known for its prestigious Geishas. They are trained in various traditional Japanese arts such as dance and music, as well as in communication and entertaining.


Day 5: Kyoto


IMG_1419 (1)We started the day early, as seemed to be our ritual. The time change made it feel much later as we usually woke up around 6:30 am. We went to Nijō Castle, which was built in 1601, parts burnt down and was again rebuilt. It’s intricately impressive in its history and architecture. A time when empires ruled society and caste systems were more common. We then went to Kinku-Ji, the golden pavilion. It’s a golden inlaid Buddhist Zen temple and popular for tourists. While extremely busy, it was well worth the crowds to see the grandeur of this temple and its gardens.



Audaciously, I wanted to find an sento onsen, to at least try it. There is a fine art of bathing which I find rather intriguing and I wanted to experience this classic tradition. Venturing alone after a recommendation from an ex-pat we met, a bit off the popular path in Kyoto.

I followed the traditions by watching how others were, not wanting to be too obnoxiously American, but also not knowing what I needed to do to follow suit. Once inside men and women are separate and there are 5 baths. One has a jacuzzi, one is electric a few are hot and they all come from hot springs below. There was an outdoor area with a cold and hot bath amidst a garden which was lovely. I felt like I left the womb when leaving, all soaked, softened and ready to go.

Day 6: Kurama 

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I wanted time to meditate and have a solo journey, navigating to me is a test of my mind and I like the challenge at times. It’s knowing where to get off and on and there are signs in English. I took the train up to Kurama. I am a Reiki master and felt the pull of this mystical place calling me to it. It is where Mikao Usui meditated for 21 days and received the Reiki healing energy.

IMG_1514 (1)Taking the train up is quite magical as one leaves the city, with tall trees and waterfalls. Walking up and through the mountains to the top shrine I meditated while a zen ceremony was taking place with a monk giving blessings.

IMG_1555 (1)It was serene and gorgeous with the autumn leaves. There were shrines to stop at on the way up, tranquil and deep in the mountains. Afterwards I went to a traditional style Japanese lunch/dinner sitting on the ground, in quiet contemplation and another onsen set amongst the mountains. Like I said, I revel in the art of bathing.

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I ate Kebabs and had Sake with friends whom I met from Japan and Taiwan after wandering into a place in Kyoto once back.


Day 7: Tokyo

We took the bullet train back to Tokyo where we were staying in Ginza for two nights. We decided to go out in Rippongi which is the cool, hip, club area. It was fun, crazy, a bit over the top. I realize that long time friendship trumps over being right. Tips from Landmark.

Day 8: Tokyo 

The food. Yum. Sushi, of course! Yet, it’s the other foods I wasn’t as familiar with that impressed me the most.
I met new friends again from wandering into a Monjayaki grill in the Tsukishima district while waiting for my Owl cafe appointment.



It surprised me this street I found, filled with Monjayaki restaurants I went into a couple. Monja as it’s known is chopped veggies, fish or seafood, with a batter that is poured on it once the chopped portion is grilling, with a pancake like consistency, it looks wary but is delectable.


A gem, yet again from venturing into new terrain. What an amazing way to experience a more local sensation.


Fukuro No Mise: Owl Cafe

What a cool experience that was. Owls are one of my spirit animals so to experience so many in one place was pretty intense. All eyes on me, or so it felt, with their penetrating gazes that stare deep into the soul. I felt many things from these majestic creatures. Images and ideas of times long ago, deep in the forests and nighttime exploring.


IMG_1497 (1)The vibe is so very Zen while bustling and busy, yes quite a paradox indeed. The people are exceptionally nice, gracious and helpful. Unbelievably so.

I feel I can let my mind escape and dream and not have to explain why I’m dreaming here. I have my setbacks show up sometimes but that’s life and traveling, is it not?

IMG_1621 (1)While dreaming and wandering in my dreamscape, especially on this trip which unexpectedly turned into visiting many temples and shrines and tuning into the realms of my spirited nature. Also, from not having my phone always connected, I felt present to the tactile world, which helped me to be with each experience, just as it was.


Magnificent if you think about what takes place to experience what we do, the organizing structure of our universe. From the macro level, to the atomic and quantum level. We are the dreams of what came before us, those of our ancestors and creator. Conscious of creation creating in and around.

Oh glory of creation you astound.

What is your moment and can you bring it to its glory?

I’m off to China and will post when I get back! You can also check out some of the same pics and more on my Instagram account. nicole_astara. Compai!


Monsanto and Bees Disappearing

Actions have consequences. Call it what you will, Karma or Newton’s third law of motion: For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

“Professor Einstein, the learned scientist, once calculated that if all bees disappeared off the earth, four years later all humans would also have disappeared.”
Abeilles et fleurs, June, 1965.

This quote was posited before genetically modified (GM) foods and pesticides infiltrated our food supply.



Monsanto, a major biotech company, along with other companies have created a worldwide monopoly on our food supply. I don’t think we can possibly estimate the pernicious effect the pesticides and foods present to our planet. While certain factions of our world may wish to be immune to GM foods, if this monopolization continues everyone will inevitably be affected.

Genetically modifying foods occurs through engineering the DNA expression and altering the genetic makeup of the seeds, creating a new unnatural strain of plant. This is sometimes done with inserting a virus into the DNA to change the structure. Numerous food sources have become modified and patented, including, but not limited to corn (field and sweet), wheat, soybeans, cotton, canola, alfalfa, sugar beets, papaya and squash. These newly created plants are then the property of Monsanto. It’s debatable as to how healthy GM foods are and the long-term effects they can have to the human genome. “Modifying one segment of DNA does not have a single direct result; instead it can cause a spiraling effect of unintended consequences”

In places worldwide, including the US and Canada, farms that have natural and heirloom seeds have been taken over by GM production. If a Monsanto seed is found on a viable farm that is organic or not Monsanto’s, by right of their patent they sue the farmer and take over the farm’s production. There are also accusations that its patented seeds are to blame for a rise in suicides, over 290,000 within 20 years, in India, by farmers whose farms were confiscated by Monsanto. In Argentina they yield mass GM soy crops, which are sprayed heavily with pesticides. In the surrounding areas of these soy fields there are high statistics of disease and deformities in human births.

Here is a little laundry list of products Monsanto makes

Bovine Growth Hormone
Agent Orange/Dioxin
Hydrogenated Vegetable Shortening


Honeybees found dying in our backyard.  Los Angeles.
Honeybees found dying in our backyard :(

It’s well known that our population is rising and world hunger is a huge issue, yet there are healthier ways to yield food production. Under the façade of solving world hunger and being sustainable, Monsanto’s profit driven scheme is counterproductively causing damage to our earth. In the past 30 years there has been a dramatic decline in honeybee colonies in America, Europe and Asia. This epidemic is termed “Colony Collapse Disorder”.

These tiny creatures are exceptionally important pollinators and colony builders, highly intelligent, eloquent conductors, stringing our biosphere together. Our natural ecosystem is completely reliant upon their pollination and their magnificent work feeds everything from plants, insects, reptilians to animals and us. If we lose the bees, we lose our natural ecosystem.

Roundup, one of Monsanto’s most well known pesticides was created in the 1970’s. Introduced into the US food supply was their “Roundup Ready” glyphosate-resistant modified seeds. Since then Roundup has been sprayed massively “A report by the organic center shows that farmers applied an additional 318 million pounds of pesticides in the first 13 years GM crops were grown in the US” Research shows that exposure to a particular class of pesticides, neonicotinoids, causes an increase in Nosema virus in honeybee colonies.

“Neonicotinoid pesticides kill bees. In the US, 90% of corn is treated with neonicotinoids. 88% of Corn is GM. Monsanto controls 80% of GM corn. Monsanto promotes Acceleron as a designer seed treatment for its GM products – Corn, Soy, and Cotton. Acceleron contains neonicotinoids (imidacloprid and Bayer’s clothianadin (Poncho/Votivo)) and a fungicide – both culprits in Collony Collapse Disorder.”

Systemic pesticides, created for the patented GM foods, are applied directly to the soil and leaves and deliver the neonicotinoids to the bees. Even further, in 2007 a new class of fungicide was introduced as a growth enhancer to the corn production, corn being a major source of food for the bees. Synergizing with neonicotinoids this increased the toxicity up to 1,000 times to the honeybees.

“Clothianidin entered the U.S. market under conditional registration in 2003, and in 2004 corn seed companies began marketing seeds treated with a 5X level of neonicotinoids (1.25 mg/seed vs. .25).”

Inductive reasoning leads one to believe that the bees disappearing and contracting Nosema virus has to do with fungicides and pesticides being sprayed on GM seeds, especially corn, in sub-lethal doses.

If the bees continue to decline it is a domino effect that will be paramount in ways I don’t think we can fathom. We are failing as the guardians of our earth if we let this continue. This is an alarm going off, one that must be heard.
This is a crime not only against humanity but upon all prevailing earthlings. A heavy subject, yet if not addressed and rectified the ramifications could be earth shattering.

If the bees are dying from this massive onset of pesticides, how is it affecting us?

Why is this ok?

What can be done?



10 Ways To Raise Your Vibration

Everything in our universe vibrates at a certain frequency, matter is energy and energy is constantly oscillating. We perceive reality with our senses, which sense the harmonics of these vibrations and resonate at certain frequencies and so does everything.

On the simplest level negative thoughts, actions, words and deeds have lower frequencies while positive ones are higher. This is the duality of our existence that creates a universal balance in our experience on this plane as conscious human beings, able to experience matter in physical form.

What we think, say and feel attract the harmonics of a similar vibration, a pattern that is like a magnet to a pattern of a similar nature. Like attracts like. We are superconductors of consciousness evolving at a rapid pace every day. Our mental, physical, emotional and spiritual selves all resonate at certain frequencies.

I notice when my vibration is higher, more elevated experiences are attracted my way and when I’m at a lower vibration I experience more resistance with manifesting what I truly desire and deriving the joy of a higher vibratory nature.

Sometimes we may not even be aware that we attracted an experience to us because it is a lodged subconscious vibration, that is where awareness of self and self-actualization come into play. Taking ownership of your experience creates liberation. Awareness then allows you to change any pattern if you so desire, to create a reality that is truly what you wish for.

That being said, we can consciously raise our vibrations to attract higher vibrational experiences in alignment with our highest state of being. Our soul’s purpose is to experience this life at our fullest expression, however that may mean to each of us individually.

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Below are some ways to Raise your Vibration:

By focusing on what is working in your life and conjuring up appreciation your mind and being will naturally create a magnet to more thoughts and experiences of what you appreciate. Figuratively, wearing rose-colored glasses for 1 minute or more will help you to see the beauty of what is here and now. Write a list of everything you are grateful for, create a gratitude jar and put little gratitudes in there daily and see what happens after a month.

Our bodies are composed of 90% water. Water has a consciousness of it’s own, like blood, it responds to our thoughts. I always give love to water before I drink it, so that it carries a vibration of love and healing for my body. I recently read an article stating that water is older than our planet, which is quite fascinating if you think about where it comes from. Going in the ocean or lake, or even a bath can raise your vibration.

Dancing and Laughing
One of our most primal instincts dating back to the beginning of our species, dancing is not only good exercise, but integrating simultaneous movement with sound is a way to be with the moment. A guru I used to see said that by dancing we release our karma from our beings. Laughing is the best medicine, and can transform a situation or mindset.

Breath is life, it is our consciousness, the air we breathe is what keeps us going. Yoga is the practice of breath in many forms, it incorporates breath work like Pranayama, breath of fire or similar. You can also do simple box breathing which is inhaling for 5 seconds and hold for 5 seconds, exhale 5 seconds and hold for 5 seconds and repeat 5-10 times. Or simply take deep inhales and exhales until you feel a shift in yourself.

I think this is one of the most important things that has slipped through the cracks of our current society. The importance of living, vibrating foods had been known since the dawn of our times yet with industrialization we’ve let that knowledge burn on the back burner which has left us with more processed, dead foods that do not nourish our beings the way we need to have higher vibrations. Any raw fruit, vegetable or seed is super juicy way to get higher vibes.

Sound Harmonics
Whether it’s music that is uplifting or binaural beats that help synchronize your brain to different waves, sound is a vibration and different sounds have different frequencies. Listen to something that has a powerful or positive message, or is happy or guided meditations. At the end of this article is a video that shows, incredibly, how sand forms geometic patterns to different HZ’s, sound is healing to the body and I’ll address that more in a separate post.

Touching the earth, sand, grass and being in nature creates ions that are healing and protecting to the body. Touching the earth for 20 minutes or longer with bare feet or hands connects the electromagnetic energy of the earth to the body and creates a circuit that helps the vibrations of earth enter the body most easily. Since our physical bodies come from this earth and go back to it, I think of it like returning to inner nature when out in nature.

The scent glands have a huge play in how we feel and what we’re experiencing, our sense of smell can unwillingly create comfort or discomfort. Essential oils have different properties and create varying effects in our brain and our experience. I will go into more detail about this in a separate post, but for now try using lavender, frankincense or lemon oil to raise your vibration. Or light a beautifully scented candle, or burn sage or Palo Santo and see how you feel afterwards.

I was watching an episode of Ancient Aliens last night, they were theorizing that crystals have encoded information from the star nations in them. These super conductors, used in computers and watches also have a profound effect on us as well. Holding them, or having them in your home can help you vibrate at a higher frequency. You can also put your intentions into crystals and see how those manifestations come about.

The simplest way in my opinion to raise the vibration. Feel love, really feel the expansive, gooey, warm, blissful feeling the heart is capable of giving. Feel it for your significant other, family, friends, for your self, those who love you, expand it into your field, into your home, work and life. Bring the heart to everything you do and see how your life is carried along the waves of love.

Try these out, see what your experience is and the effects afterwards. My hope is that your vibration is raised in some form or another and you are able to experience the bliss of purposeful conscious awareness of right now, as it is.

How is your vibration?


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Humanity’s Degeneracy

We, as a race, are laying a foundation that can only be coined as dirty laundry. An inherited degeneracy that hopefully will not passed down to our progeny. As we are massively heralding in a new chapter of our existence, I think we can all sense a foreboding feeling. We have choices to make, ones that either have sustainable progress or that could easily wipe us out.

How is it that BILLIONS of dollars are spent on war and yet there are people starving in our world?

We’re trashing our beautiful earth in the name of production that we need quickly, more efficiently at higher volumes, more, more more, faster, faster, faster. There is someone having to produce that in some manner or another, where do you think it’s coming from? All the while there are millions of starving people who need to be fed on this planet.

Within the past 100 years we’ve created thousands of years of damage to our soil, waters, air, forests and freshwaters. Our foods are not giving us proper nutrients, are in some cases toxic and in the U.S. organic is outrageously expensive. In most major cities due to mass amounts of pollution there are insufficient amounts of oxygen. Disease is higher as a result of this. Not to mention our water is becoming corporatized.

There are many types of resourceful, healthier energy and sustainable motors that could run on reusable and non toxic fuels or electricity. With so much technological advancement over the past 50 years, many would think these issues would be a priority. Instead we heavily rely on oil due to the monopoly of it in our economy, which is backwards and in-conducive to progress.

Our attitude towards how we are with material goods is indicative of our priorities; we discard them carelessly for the next best thing. I understand they may hold value, therefore, cherish them for what they are but keep in mind, they’re not more important than our connections to one another and our precious earth and creatures, neither is money, titles, fame and glory.

photo Excuses are abound and excuses will not get us out of this. I hear it’s been done this way for thousands of years, or, this is just how we are, we’re doomed. Which I don’t believe is true.

It’s an aversion to change.

I have an aversion, to the distraction that is happening through massive levels of conditioning and brainwashing.

I feel in the depths of my being the pain and suffering happening on deprived levels to people, animals and our earth. A deep fear in people, from basic needs not being met. This is an unconscious hijacking of the Amygdala, our most primal survival instinct. This causes desperation to meet those needs and I believe, higher rates of crime and dependency. Until all of us have our inherent right and ability to have survival needs met, than none of us can truly reach the levels of consciousness that is our potential as a race. Which we all feel within us as we’re all connected. This is common sense it’s also scientifically proven, known as the collective consciousness.

Our collective is at extreme unease, unknowing what to do. What we could start to do is be courageous, take responsibility for our actions and stand for what we know is good, what is pure for each other and our planet. So that purity is preserved for the children and our future.

We can no longer hide our heads in the sand about what is happening on our planet nor give into the fear that is running rampant. Think about what you are using, what you are eating, what you are wearing where it came from and how it is produced. Think about the carbon footprint you are leaving.

Don’t misunderstand me, I know I’m also a part of the problem, all of us are. The solution lies with us, and thinking about what we leave for the great, great-grandchildren of our world. As easy as it is to shrug off what’s important in the distraction game, this is not to be cast away.

Parents want a safe world for their children to grow up in and I believe it’s time to take action, quickly, to counteract what is happening. Much of what we’re seeing comes from the patriarchal ways of plundering and separation that have been handed down to us from prior generations. We don’t have time to play in those archaic belief systems any longer.

We either work together, as essentially, we’re all humans.

Or we keep going at the pace we’re at, and I’ll say it again:

We will be destroyed as a race, by our inability to connect to the emotions of love, conservation, compassion, unity, tolerance, peace and empathy.

Love as always is the key….



Dream On

Shoot for the stars, for you may end up on Venus, heaven or maybe Mars.

Alas, falling seems to have lead me to great heights (See story below).
Leaving Chicago for California, falling and breaking my elbow. On my flight back to Michigan to be treated for it, my thoughts were I wouldn’t be traveling to LA for a while.

I struck up conversation with the person sitting next to me on this plane, who was leaving his current job. Which became a fortuitous meeting leading me to a new position as executive assistant to singer Matt Goss.

What I learned from this chance meeting, was the importance of reaching out, being kind and conversing with a neighbor. One can never know when an opportunity may come about. It’s the chance meetings that can sometimes alter the course of life. An unexpected yet meaningful coincidence of an energetic time-continuum pattern, what Carl Jung termed “Synchronistic”

Originally from London, Matt Goss is a headlining singer at Caesars Palace.

The show is quite phenomenal. His singing a conduit for the whole experience it includes a fantastic band and gorgeous singers and dancers. Not to be missed if you’re in Las Vegas.

Every day presents me with new opportunities, my catalyst being fiery ambition. I feel blessed by the absolute perfection within my path bringing me fun and patience to make my goals happen. As I continue to learn and grow I’m also allowing my wings to unfold in LA, while grounding myself into simplicity.
Blown away in the ultimate way that life works; experiences that are irrefutably meant to be,  Los Angeles beckoning me back.

A purposeful tragedy.
Falling to pick oneself up again as the universe conspires to place pieces in an order, an inescapable destiny. This is a purposeful path made through diligence and intention, seeded from the unexpected.
Matter forms itself to will and intention, belief and action.
Luck or perhaps divine intervention?

are they one and the same?
This is representative of taking chances, opening up and reaching out, for you never know what opportunity may come about.

Dream on, to dream big, lovely dreamer.
And I leave you with this to ponder

…… What is your Dream and how can you make it your Purpose?…..



Breaking My Arm Healed My Nihilism

“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame;
how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?”

The past few months have felt like a whirlwind of excitement and opportunity, tossing me to and fro. Within the eye of the storm my center has remained. Forever I return to it. Seeking solace in what can feel like madness within matter and existence.

A nagging feeling of Nihilism was underlying my life the past couple of years. The passion and vigor that once drove me to be daring, seemed fading. I was starting to feel that my lofty ambitions were only pipe dreams. Perhaps I was silly to be dreaming so big while the reality was not at all what I had dreamt.


Like a crescendo in a symphony, opportunity permeated my life with deep harmony. Healing to mind and spirit. Helping me to master the outer realms with introspection into the shadows and light of self. As only a great teacher does.
In a way that only true mastery of self-love occurs. This state of mind has taken ahold, possessing all the right ingredients to create a cacophony of chaotic beauty.

And completely shake me out of what I knew things to be.

What is the meaning if one doesn’t dare to dream or take chances?

Or laugh at the expense of self?

I dared again and flew to Los Angeles, on a whim and string of possibilities. To encounter new experiences and a fateful night in which I tripped over a balcony 15 feet onto the cement, breaking my elbow and having a surgery that I quickly am recovered from.

Since then an epiphany has overcome me, thus being; all the mundane complaints that could underly my thoughts are vanishing. I am filled with joy and laughter and a new manner of looking at life. In complete gratitude for being alive, let alone only having a broken elbow. As I keep reiterating to myself, this could’ve been much worse.

I have a renewed sense; an awe for the microcosm in life is resurfacing. I am seeing how much love, abundance and beauty surround me. Not in the future, not as a hope, not in my dreams, but here and now, in my living reality.


Intention: Radiating the love I feel for life and those around me as pure gratitude from my source of living consciousness. Being lead by this heart of mine, guiding and shining through what may feel like chaos into clarity.

Triumphant over tragedy in mind, body and spirit.

As 2013 draws to an end, I savor the moments with family and friends. I am in complete awe of the universe and its manifestations.

I know that 2014 will be a year of action, gratitude and awakening. Sowing the seeds of my dreams that have already been planted, knowing my highest potential is manifesting with gratitude and action.

Any Nihilism becoming Extropianism.

“To love beauty is to see light.”- Victor Hugo



As with all in my life, the details will be explored more in my memoir.
I want to extend a warm thank you for all the help I’ve received from family and friends with this injury. While my independence wants me to do everything myself, there are times when help is necessary and for that I am truly grateful.

Taking Flight

I ask myself if I believe in destiny or do I co-create my reality, are they one and the same?

The manifestation of soul knows and speaks through the body in intuitive flashes and promptings. With a purpose to its calling, trusting its knowledge, I’ve moved onto a new path. As I’m entering new realms of self-discovery and owning them the word Boaz has come to me meaning strength and the unknown, which causes trepidation.

There are times when strength is taking a stand, no one outside of self knows how to do that. True strength resonates with the understanding of the soul’s whisperings.

Unflinching in the face of the unknown, viewing it as an opportunity of empowerment. What I swore could never be happening is whilst what was comfortable as I knew my life to be, has dismantled.

I’ve laid intentions and have viewed higher aspects of my living dream and where I have to let go, I find beautiful treasures unfold. Stepping away from what is unhealthy allows what is thriving to grow. Knowing that in this unknown abyss called life anything is possible.


I traveled to Budapest where I arrived feeling bogged down. I received a phenomenal massage from a healer who told me “Always care for you first, make that time happen”. Empathically releasing residue I’d been holding onto, ironically I realized I was relinquishing my heart’s calling for attainment of status quo, which goes against everything I teach to others, I had become a living contradiction .


During the days, I strolled the boulevards, going to the famed Szeycheni baths for a dip and watching opera in the park at a castle.

At night Budapest transformed into a magically lit sight along the Danube. Taken by rickshaw on a tour, this city felt alive with softly glowing and swaying lanterns, cobblestone streets blocked off with chairs and tables, smells of grilling, musical sounds mingling, movement of people walking, dancing and romancing. An active city, with much youth amidst what has kept a jazzy glamour.

I thoroughly enjoy traveling alone at times, in the uncomfortable feeling of not knowing my surroundings or culture I expand in my ability to circumnavigate, communicate and get to know others. I left Budapest with making things happen for myself, of course with help from others as well.
In gratitude for that help always.


Traveling can thrust one into a new path unexplored, unexpected, unknowing how it happens, it just does.

Heading to the train station an hour and a half early, waiting almost two hours in line I missed the original train instead taking a later one. Feeling buoyant about this turn of events with a pulsating clarity in my heart.

It was hot, one of the hottest days on record in Budapest. The train arrived and everything felt muggy and tired. I was in a meditation of sorts releasing thoughts that were no longer befitting my state of being. Moving through the impatience of delay, I looked out the window to see the lights flash off and on three times.

Which has happened before, twice actually, usually an auspicious sign of something taking place beyond my conscious mind.

What I do know is this delay caused a meeting with an incredible friend, that made my time in Prague extraordinary. The three days I was there were spent being shown around the picturesque city that felt out of a storybook.


The architecture in Prague is preserved,the museum, churches and opera house were indescribably gorgeous. A clear and meticulous ingenuity makes up the city’s design.

Prague captured my heart; out of a movie scene, camera missing, the pictures snapped in memory.


I was taken out of my comfort zone, comfortably. Also out of Prague on a mountain trip. I asked to stop at Terezin, which once was a concentration camp. I felt it important to see the depths to depravity. To not be forgotten. Feeling despair while honoring the victims I understood I came to reclaim a part of my soul.

I went to Teplice, a Bohemian mountain town also known for its healing spas where people from around the world indulge in. In an illusory fashion, I went frolicking and swimming in the mountains.

A thunderstorm again blowing winds into the path on the ride back to Prague, the elements making their presence known. I left Prague dizzy with bliss. Bittersweet, yet knowing like most in life, experiences are forever engrained in mind and heart.



I benefit by letting go of expectations, allowing the universe to unfold its wings to me, as I to it.
Like the butterfly I feel my wings are drying after emerging from the chrysalis, a part of me vies to go back to the comfort of it, while the urge within says to

spread my wings.

Unsure, shaky, yet knowing the winds of change will take me

where I’m meant to go

taking flight



I lost my camera in Budapest so the pictures featured are pulled from internet to give you a visual.

Signs and Synchronicities