About Me Too

“If something is trending and interesting, ask critical questions.  Who is participating?  Who is benefiting?  Who is left out?” ~ Brianna, The Wake (Influencer/Activist)

Albeit late, I had all intentions to post about Paris and our trip. Yet what’s been on my mind are the allegations that have been coming forward, seemingly daily, from the entertainment industry. More so feeling compassion for all the people who’ve bravely come forward with their stories.

Of course Me Too, I can count on both hands things that have happened. One, as a teenager was blown up in the media where I self-blamed, was slut shamed, victim blamed and shunned from my community. I don’t want to make this post about my story, I will go into detail in my memoir and short film.

Although, when I would share my story in my youth and onwards, I was shocked by how many people would confide in me something that happened to them that they “never talked about”.  A victim’s shame can keep them withholding their experience and pain.

“So much about activism is giving visibility to those who are denied representation.  It’s about giving voices to the disenfranchised.  People who fight the hardest for these things are people who are actually within those communities.”~ Brianna, The Wake (Influencer/Activist)

The paradigm shift is upon us and it’s pertinent for us as a collective to discuss sexual assault and abuse, especially coming from the industry that influences our society.  There’s a lot of owning up happening and we’re seeing people being held accountable for their actions. Women’s voices are being heard.

These cycles of abuse have been perpetuating generations upon generations. It is in the uncovering of these icky, murky, disgraceful depths that we can start to create change for our future generations by talking about it. By teaching respect and personal boundaries from a young age.

Open up, let’s talk about this. It’s not something to be ashamed of any longer, it’s something to become empowered through, together. There is solidarity and strength that can be found in sharing.

I commend everyone who is coming forward with their stories and the courage it takes to expose the pain. Empowerment is possible and you can overcome it. My heart goes out to you and surrounds you in healing light.

 

xo,

Nicole

Article where quotes were pulled from I highly recommend reading:

http://www.wakemag.org/sections/voices/me-too

 

 

Charlottesville

Appalled, horrified, regressing are the first words that come to my mind when I think of what is occurring with the white supremacist protests in Charlottesville.

I am screaming inside. HOW THE F IS THIS HAPPENING? It’s now far beyond anger, it’s a deep driving feeling of SOMETHING MUST CHANGE.

There is the part of me that watches what is happening. With a horrified knowing that something is absurdly wrong with our current paradigm. In the right agenda, this is being condoned and history repeating itself in what millions suffered and died because of and what our great grandfathers fought for in World War 2.

Asinine.

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Superiority is a primal tendency that comes from a time that we needed to fight for our lives to survive anything that posed a threat to our little cave dwellings. Fight or flight.

THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO.

How can it be that these primal tendencies still run the conscious programming of many? This is blind adherence to superior thinking that if left unchecked will continue to de-evolve our race.

Racism exists, sadly. To say it doesn’t would be burying one’s head in the sand and evading the the problems at hand. Racism and hatred are the antithesis to change and evolution. The type of indoctrinated fear that creates a separatist mindset is the epitome of ignorance and absolutely detrimental to human harmony and world peace.

It is the negative agenda: Divide and conquer, us vs them, through exactly this kind of programming. This agenda is perpetuated by a society that subtly feeds into the separatist factions which wants us to keep fighting based on such superfluous things such as race, creed, gender, class and more.

Rather than coming together despite said differences to realize that we’re essentially all part of one race.

The human race.

How and why? Think how much easier it is to control humans and keep them programmed into a conditioned, consumerist mindset if in a desperate state of fight or flight. Reacting from our amygdala and fear response mechanisms rather than our frontal lobe which governs our reasoning and problem solving.

 

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The collective consciousness is at a place that its never been and we are seeing the darkest shadows of our race come to the surface.

What can each of us do about it?

We are human and can and will stand in solidarity together to overcome this. Keep doing the work and activism that you’re doing to halt this type of ignorance and mindsets in their tracks. Through your communities, social media, protests and wherever you can, seek out groups that connect rather than disconnect, that bring us together rather than separate. That love rather than hate.

If we do the work together, we can make the change together. I pray for each and every human being on this planet, that we may all understand our interconnectedness and that what happens to every one if us is felt deep within this collective consciousness.

That in and of itself is something to revel in, dear human.

We all are on this planet together.

Coming together will be what counteracts the hatred and fear.

Our future depends on it.

 

Collective Consciousness

xo,

Nicole

Will you see BREASTS?

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What is your take on them?

How do they make you feel?

Do you support them?

Do you use them?

Do they offend you?

How do you feel when you see them?

Have you ever had an incident with them that would cause a movie to be made?

We’re all human here so let’s digress a bit.

The topic of discussion for using the word Breasts in this post is the biological reason for why us women have them. Thus being…… Breastfeeding.

Moreover, breastfeeding in the workplace, leading us to the premise of Breasts The Film.

While I’m not a mom, as of yet, I’m passionate about this topic and working on this short film is powerfully moving. It’s based on a true story about a working mother who is slapped with a sexual harassment complaint when she explains she must pump her breasts to a coworker. Just imagine this scenario for a minute and the underlying implications of that happening.

The first thought when one hears breasts may be laced with an idea perpetuated from what it means to our society and collective mind frame. We live in a society that we’re blasted with images of T&A every day, yet a mom feels lambasted for saying a word that’s meaning is usually construed in a sexual way.

While this topic may feel that it’s centered around gender, as breastfeeding is an inherent part to being a female, this topic is a discussion for everyone. Moms have the capability to feed their babies milk that is designed for the biological makeup of each child. Quite genius of the body if you ask me.

Now this brings up the question of.

Where does the discomfort from this subject stem from and why is it stigmatized to an extent in our current society?

We have been receiving emails from women all over the country sharing their breastfeeding and pumping stories. It’s amazing to read the varying experiences moms have whether facing adversity or support for their choice, in the workplace and otherwise. Some feel supported by their colleagues and businesses, yet many feel slighted and stigmatized for their decision.

Whether one chooses to breastfeed and pump, or not, do you think there should be rights to protect and support moms in that decision?

It is, I imagine, a very personal and delicate decision, one that is intertwined with a feeling of vulnerability due to our current societal ideas and positions around it.

 

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I’m working with a brilliant team for the film, made up of some badass and talented women and some awesome men. We’ve been building the vision, creating momentum while creatively collaborating with one another in the multi-layered process that making a film entails. All the pieces are coming together, from special effects, to directing, to location scouting and event planning. It’s happening. Locally in New Orleans.

There is a movement of women in film that I find quite profound. Sophia Coppola just became the first female director in it’s 70 year history to win “Best Director” at the Cannes Film Festival. The female directed phenomenon Wonder Woman is taking the world for a wonder ride. While Ava DuVernay is taking Hollywood by storm.

Call it big or small, BREASTS has joined this women’s revolution, it feels grandiose in its breadth. Breasts is a film with a statement that has perhaps lain dormant, we’re giving voice to women, in the way we can, through it .

We’re doing a fundraiser on Seed and Spark, which is a fundraising platform for filmmaking. When we have 500 followers on Seed and Spark we get an awesome film incentive package. We don’t discriminate, little and big donations to Breasts are accepted. What size donation can you do? ; )          Seed and Spark for Breasts

Meet our incredible team and see what we’re up to and share your stories at Breasts The Film

 

xo,

Nicole

 

Knowing Unknown

If one does not take a step into the unknown, will one ever know?

Wisdom is a culmination of knowing and experience.

Which sometimes takes stepping into the uncomfortable.

In facing the unknown, challenges may appear. Like roadblocks, these challenges once overcome become epiphanies. It is through the layers unraveling that self-growth becomes apparent and makes the presence of the unknown, known.

Trusting instinctual guidance as a course of action has not always been the easiest process. Yet, in hindsight proves to be exactly what is needed.

Right now, I am taking on a challenge for myself; to live and creatively express in a new place, new way, new form.

Yet always coming from source, creating force.

Therefore, trust is the imperative word right now. Trust in self, life, universe, expression and unity within reality. Authentically.

Even when the path is unknown.

What does it look like to reveal the unseen?

xo,

Nicole

I’ll be back with a New Orleans post next.

LAnniversary

Today is an anniversary for me. Of falling 18ft over a balcony onto cement only to have a broken arm. On a full moon nonetheless. Friday the 13th, 2013. On a whim had I had moved to LA a few weeks prior.

A catalyst to a new start. I know I chose to stay alive and live my purpose. One I’ve worked intensely for and the pieces all seem to be falling into a place in such a profound way, all at once. Like a puzzle what I didn’t know, I didn’t know.

Now.

I feel exceptionally grateful for what is happening in my life currently, the people in it and the momentum to imaginatively create my dreams. I’ve allowed ideas to flourish while working relentlessly towards them in the pursuit of purpose.

Since living in LA my experiences have been at times, exceptionally surreal. I strive every day towards my greatest and best. Even through my setbacks and perfectionism of questioning if there is a different way to be than the wayward, free-spirited way I am.

Yet, I know that’s only societal conditioning and surrender it when it comes up, to total self acceptance of the now. Knowing there is a meaning to the path I’ve chosen.

Destiny is taking me along its course and the people in my life astound me, I feel so fortunate. The experiences that I’ve had throughout life, have shaped who I am and for that I’m grateful. I feel deep love in my heart for living, life and what will come.

I’m elated for what the future holds.

xo,

Nicole

Rebel With a Cause

And I heard “Play safe, play by the rules. ” To which my soul whispered “Rules are meant to be bent. Therefore, I shall envision them as I see fit.”

I will play real.

I will play free.

I will play bold.

I will play smart.

I will play love.

I will play adventurous.

I will play light.

I will play wHealthy.

I will play fun.

I will play capacious expression.

I will play being human.

I will play comPassion.

I will play life, as it is lead.

I will play one hundred and eleven percent.

I will listen to my heart to understand what my soul’s calling is, as I unravel self through this multifarious existence.

For this is the game that I wish to play as my essence and path are elucidated.

My truth and rules reside within as I am a self sovereign being.

xo,

Nicole

The Fall of the Feminine

Once upon a time the God and Goddess stood together, hand in hand in love with one another and their creation in a balanced harmony.

Over time the Goddess has fallen, to her knees, weeping as she witnessed her lands and creatures wreaked by destruction. Perpetrated by bloodshed, with wars waged against her children. As she fell, she felt the pain sink deep into her heart and core, embedding itself into the genetic memory of all humans.

This became the fall of humanity’s hearts and intuitive minds. For as the feminine fell, we were thrust into harsh times. This harshness has encapsulated our race in a time capsule that censors our quest for sustenance that can be re-attuned to by going deep within.

Many hear the resonant chords in our hearts and minds of a time when the balance with the feminine was harmonious. When this suppressed information was understood, engaged with.

That which is suppressed must also be extremely powerful.

This post is not to place blame, nor focus on what has happened. It’s to uncover a deeply rooted story that has been hidden; the power of the feminine and loss of sacred knowledge and the connection to our natural cycles and rhythms. This includes the earth, all earthlings and ways of being in harmony with her and through her, the universe at large.

This is my Philosopher’s Stone if you will and a taboo subject, as the information is quite hidden, some of it destroyed. The remembering of where we come from is vitally important to me in the quest for wisdom, attainment of higher consciousness and what it represents.

Let’s just take the story I’m about to present as an allegory, or a metaphor. One that can be interpreted in many ways, yet has a similar by-product seen by the denial of our intrinsically connected nature. This fall I speak of has been one of the most suppressed pieces of information in our history. I’ve been researching different parts of it for several years. If you are interested you can do your own research as I try to keep this simple because one can definitely get sucked into a rabbit hole of it. With this plunge it’s like we’ve been cut off, like an etheric umbilical cord, from our primordial source of nature and being. Our race as a whole.

What I refer to as the patriarchial rule is not men or males, it’s the dogma, control, sublimation, domination and suppression of humans and nature through religions and corruption. The subtle and not so subtle dishonoring and shutting down the “human being” more so the feminine. This is not to disregard men or males in any way by speaking on the patriarchy or where we are as a whole. There are many men I know who are undertaking the conscious evolution of our planet in their own ways and who are completely in balance with aspects of themselves. I like to think of them as the evolved masculine, what a glory that is to behold. There are also women I know who are way out of balance with their masculine sides, as we all have both within.

While this plunge may have caused damage to our genetic experience of awakening. If there is a fall that happened, wouldn’t it also be a part of the perfect cosmic cycle of experience?

 

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AEON SOPHIA

Gnostic traditions refer to it as Aeon Sophia. The story of this force is a fascinating description of how life came to be on Earth and the attainment of wisdom through knowledge on our planet. Aeon Sophia translates as the wisdom goddess, she who took the plunge to become an organic, living force.

“Alien Dreaming: The Enigma of the Archons – The Gaia Mythos describes how the impact of the Aeon Sophia upon the density of atomic matter produced a massive fracture, like the shattered pattern on an ice pond. The pattern has a center where Sophia is located (identified by the Mandelbrot Set), and a spider-web extension of fracture lines that run in all directions (the frozen sea of fractal waves)..”

“In the second stage of the unfoldment described in Trimorphic Protennoia, the Aeon Sophia “descends to empower her fallen members by giving them spirit or breath.” (NHLE 1996, p. 511) Thus the tensile forms morph from semi-rigid seahorses into rounded fetal forms with tails, but the tails, it seems, keep falling off and turning into other embryos. By this bizarre process of self-repeating generation, the neonate horde of the Archons emerges.”

“Human beings are on a journey of awareness,
which has been momentarily interrupted by extraneous forces.”
Carlos Castaneda, Magical Passes

This is also referred to as Shekinah in Judaism. Inanna in Babylonian mythology. Persephone with Hades going into The Underworld. Shakti in Hinduism and many other names worldwide throughout history. The story of Mary Magdalen and Mother Mary may also be alluding to the fallen goddess, along with the quest for the Holy Grail. I believe many of the stories are metaphysically metaphorical for the attainment of enlightenment. In many ancient texts, there are metaphors for the alchemical philosopher’s stone; to transcend and become awakened to inner illumination and the many symbols that represent that.

The Nag Hammadi from Gnostic traditions says that Aeons are like massive dancing conscious light and emoting energy from the center of the galactic core in our galaxy. Who revel in the bliss, play, love and excitement of creating and watching those creations come about. What is said is the living, organic life on our planet, including the human species happened with the conscious dreaming intention of the joining of Aeon Sophia and Aeon Thelete. Creating little spores of DNA that were shot out into the arms of our galaxy through a tube like tendril. They then released filaments of DNA and potential life down the arms of the galaxy to reach outer planets and nestle in and become organic life in warm environments and planets where life could thrive.

Aeon Sophia, like a mother, was curious and wanted to know how her creations would come about. She left the galactic center, which was unprecedented by Aeons before that. In doing this she fell from the center of cosmic light into more dense matter. Her plume, like a shooting star, mixed with matter in the Orion star system, creating a race of archons who are like our demented, degenerate cosmic siblings. Or so the story goes.

The earth hosting the DNA that her and Thelete dreamt up, she then came into the earth as a living breathing force that was once a dancing light from the center of our galaxy, with the ability to dream into form from her force, to protect us as well as oversee her archontic creations. We, as the human race and living earth and earthlings are the emanations of her lucid dreaming.

This knowledge and wisdom have been forsaken and hidden from the forefront of our collective perspective. What we have been taught instead, through much propaganda and the conditioning of our culture, is a misalignment by placing power outside of Self, instead of awakening the power within. Let’s just say these misaligned forces urge humanity to give intrinsic power away, to listen without discerning what truth it; truth is known within, there are many paths and teachers to light that way.

The organic force is a power so intelligent we can’t begin to comprehend it. The patriarchy shadow has consisted of brutality and control masking as superiority, attainment and collecting of materialistic urges. This is not to negate technology and living comfortably, for I simply love it yet it’s pertinent to create a balance for our future and future generations.

Do you think we use technology as a mask to a deeply un-rooted issue of having lost our connection to our sacred planet, who is alive and teeming with universal intelligence?

This intelligence can be seen in the simplest living thing like a shell or plant, holding the Fibonacci sequence, or golden ratio.

The wool has been pulled over our eyes for many millenia. Creating fear, separation, rifts of fearing what is different steeped so deep that it has disconnected us from our own essence, nature and connection to one another. This is displayed in the shadow domination of the collective in how we treat each other, animals and our earth if we sense there is a difference or something to be feared or the cruelty and abuse that happens.

Most human beings are doing their best given their state of circumstances and environment. This is not to say there aren’t the pathos, or mutations, which occurs in all living things on our planet.

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ORGONE

I wrote briefly about this years ago, links are below for some meditations to connect to this ether, orgone, prana matter. This earth energy I speak of has been scientifically studied, although no surprise, suppressed. It was harnessed and observed by scientist Dr. Wilhelm Reich who coined the term Orgone. In the US, where we are supposed to have free speech, Dr. Reich’s work was confiscated and destroyed because it went in direct opposition to the pharmaceutical industry at the time. He created an Orgone accumulator that could heal disease, with the harnessing of Orgone; Earth’s own erotic energy or Aeon Sophia.

“And shortly after arriving coined the term “orgone” – from “orgasm” and “organism” – for a biological energy he said he had discovered, which he said others called God. “ -Wikipedia

“Charged with contempt in 1956 for having violated the injunction, Reich was sentenced to two years’ imprisonment, and that summer over six tons of his publications were burned by order of the court.[n 2] He died in prison of heart failure just over a year later, days before he was due to apply for parole.[15]”

The shadow side of the elite, political system, banks and corporations are pawns to their own greed, corruption and pathology with the mentality that power lies in control, censorship and greed. True power does not control, nor deceive in order to gain materially. True power loves, gives and receives, being a source of itself

On August 23, six tons of Reich’s books, journals and papers were burned in New York, in the Gansevoort incinerator, the public incinerator on 25th Street. The material included copies of several of his books, including The Sexual Revolution, Character Analysis and The Mass Psychology of Fascism.”

“It has been cited as one of the worst examples of censorship in U.S. history.[n 2] As with the accumulators, the FDA was supposed only to observe the destruction.”

Over the past few millenia our sexual natures have also been suppressed. Whether looked at as taboo, sinful or carnally objectified to the physical through porn; this suppression has stripped away the exquisite sensations of learning the presence of mind/body/spirit and the art of sacred sensuality/sexuality as one of the many pathways to enlightenment, the human body as a tool through inner alchemy.  There is a great power in this alchemical process this that seems to be purposely concealed and diluted.

Has this information and more that we may not ever know, been hidden to keep us locked into a disempowering cycle?

To shut down our potential of aligning the neo cortex with the reptilian brain or hindbrain, in doing so activating higher centers and the evolution of our DNA?

By using breath, it can open up energy pathways to what’s known as nirvana, or Turiya which rise up the energy channels. Breath is connected to Orgone and being grounded in the body with the many tools that connect one to it, allows for clarity of life to present itself and know what truth is internally by accessing the higher states of awareness.

Perhaps allow the memory of Aeon Sophia to re-surface. I urge you, don’t take my words for it, feel what is true to you.

It’s simple and doesn’t have to be convoluted to a point of breaking down logically, for this is a sensory, intuitive and intelligent living force that is a cosmic play of life as we experience it.

If one just lets it happen, the intentionality is enough to open the doors to the inner realms and taking the step will be up to each person who is willing. Using the will with intuition becomes the sacred marriage, doing with being, ultimate alchemy.

I have a book/movie idea that I am writing that ties into this. Fingers crossed.

xo,

Nicole

 

 

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Authentically Empowered Woman

An Authentically Empowered Woman:

Knows thyself therefore can connect authentically to others and resides in her inner knowing, a knowing that propels her in motion.

Needs no validation from the outer world to draw from the reservoir of inner self and action. Knows that true beauty is exuding an inner radiance that lights the inner and outer, towards self and others. True validation starts within.

Has forged a path for herself through her own gifts, resources, diligence, resilience and patience, not needing to rely on those around her. Pulls creativity from her deep inner well spring, one that is eternally hers and unique to her experience, sharing it with others to build upon.

Has gone through the dark night of her soul, to come out complete and awakened to her light of self-awareness. She honors herself and those around her, coming from a place of pure inspiration.

Pushes forward against all odds and listens to her inner for what she knows to be, for within self the answer rings with clarity.

Knows that completeness is in the moment and holds space from that awakened sense for others to find their own essence. Gives from her empowered sense, not expecting, instead standing in what she deserves.

Speaks her truth from a place of genuinity and strength of being. Knows that being vulnerable is an expression of wisdom and in that there is a softness of connecting.

Magnetizes what she needs to learn from life and the people who support her highest state of being. Understanding the inter connectedness of life and as a beloved friend states:

“As she listens to the signs and sounds of that and those around her which inspire influence and suggest, she hears, for it is in the mirror reflection that we find the guided alignment because in all of our individual work lies the collective”

 

xo,

Nicole

Breaking My Arm Healed My Nihilism

“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame;
how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?”

The past few months have felt like a whirlwind of excitement and opportunity, tossing me to and fro. Within the eye of the storm my center has remained. Forever I return to it. Seeking solace in what can feel like madness within matter and existence.

A nagging feeling of Nihilism was underlying my life the past couple of years. The passion and vigor that once drove me to be daring, seemed fading. I was starting to feel that my lofty ambitions were only pipe dreams. Perhaps I was silly to be dreaming so big while the reality was not at all what I had dreamt.

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Like a crescendo in a symphony, opportunity permeated my life with deep harmony. Healing to mind and spirit. Helping me to master the outer realms with introspection into the shadows and light of self. As only a great teacher does.
In a way that only true mastery of self-love occurs. This state of mind has taken ahold, possessing all the right ingredients to create a cacophony of chaotic beauty.

And completely shake me out of what I knew things to be.

What is the meaning if one doesn’t dare to dream or take chances?

Or laugh at the expense of self?

I dared again and flew to Los Angeles, on a whim and string of possibilities. To encounter new experiences and a fateful night in which I tripped over a balcony 15 feet onto the cement, breaking my elbow and having a surgery that I quickly am recovered from.

Since then an epiphany has overcome me, thus being; all the mundane complaints that could underly my thoughts are vanishing. I am filled with joy and laughter and a new manner of looking at life. In complete gratitude for being alive, let alone only having a broken elbow. As I keep reiterating to myself, this could’ve been much worse.

I have a renewed sense; an awe for the microcosm in life is resurfacing. I am seeing how much love, abundance and beauty surround me. Not in the future, not as a hope, not in my dreams, but here and now, in my living reality.

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Intention: Radiating the love I feel for life and those around me as pure gratitude from my source of living consciousness. Being lead by this heart of mine, guiding and shining through what may feel like chaos into clarity.

Triumphant over tragedy in mind, body and spirit.

As 2013 draws to an end, I savor the moments with family and friends. I am in complete awe of the universe and its manifestations.

I know that 2014 will be a year of action, gratitude and awakening. Sowing the seeds of my dreams that have already been planted, knowing my highest potential is manifesting with gratitude and action.

Any Nihilism becoming Extropianism.

“To love beauty is to see light.”- Victor Hugo

Xo,

Nicole

As with all in my life, the details will be explored more in my memoir.
I want to extend a warm thank you for all the help I’ve received from family and friends with this injury. While my independence wants me to do everything myself, there are times when help is necessary and for that I am truly grateful.

Through Space and Time

As my consciousness is a risin’
My modus operandi’s a changin’

To the rhythms and patterns within the fabric of life.

I see my resistances in life as reflections of obstacles I’ve yet to overcome. I am learning to love what I value in life watching it grow more beautiful.

A summer filled with weddings, family and travel.
Including a wedding for my younger sister, in which I was the maid of honor. A trip home that grounded me into the fabric of family, noting where I come from and the beautiful bonds I have with them. It was a dream day to witness, in a happy, beautiful and loving ceremony celebrating two soul mates finding each other.

A gorgeous celebration

Since the question has come up repeatedly about my free-spirited love life. I have deliberated on that question and have come to some inner conclusions.

The past year and a half has been a symbolic weeding of my garden, taking ownership and integrating everything I have experienced, creating resilience and realization of my truth, while honing my adventurous, independent and creative nature.

Knowing that in the right timing everything I dream of will happen, not as a fragmented half, waiting for completion by a relationship. But as a whole being, loving and accepting myself completely attracting the man who is absolutely meant for me.

The whole to my whole.

For now I am so happy, complete and enjoying life from this center of home within.

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The elements of fire and water have come into my life recently, repeatedly. There was a moment of watching raindrops falling on the lake, the circles spreading, mesmerizing me into a lull, playing a melody. The patterns resembling the circular movement of life.

As the circles move through my life, I am healing deeply imbedded wounds in the context of what it means being female and the unhealthy conditioning of competition and pretentiousness thetas sometimes presented as the feminine.

It’s not.

I’ve dismantled distorted beliefs from conditioned ideals. Releasing objectification and a shattered version of the feminine. One that reaches down into ancestral patterns of what we’ve been.

As I break through patterns I feel free to have healthy friendships and circles of women. The true backbone of the feminine is being a support system and when healthy it reflects healthy relationships with our male counterparts.

This all has surfaced as surprise features from the mysterious abyss of the divine feminine. That which births creation and cannot be explained nor contained, yet is the intrinsic matrix to life itself.

And the divine masculine the action principle; without action being is futile. The great force of physical everyhthing-ness that propels our universe, keeping the harmonious balance.

Source in all facets and names, all that is all things.

As I’ve yet again moved to a new space, new place I know that no space, no place outside of myself is home. For my temple resides within. Illumination of this inner sanctum is my natural essence, a foundation in the inner allows for divine reflection of the outer.

Through Space and Time

xo,

Nicole

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