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Knowing Unknown

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If one does not take a step into the unknown, will one ever know?

Wisdom is a culmination of knowing and experience.

Which sometimes takes stepping into the uncomfortable.

In facing the unknown, challenges may appear. Like roadblocks, these challenges once overcome become epiphanies. It is through the layers unraveling that self-growth becomes apparent and makes the presence of the unknown, known.

Trusting instinctual guidance as a course of action has not always been the easiest process. Yet, in hindsight proves to be exactly what is needed.

Right now, I am taking on a challenge for myself; to live and creatively express in a new place, new way, new form.

Yet always coming from source, creating force.

Therefore, trust is the imperative word right now. Trust in self, life, universe, expression and unity within reality. Authentically.

Even when the path is unknown.

What does it look like to reveal the unseen?

xo,

Nicole

I’ll be back with a New Orleans post next.

Vipassana

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To see things as they really are.

Observation.

A 10 day silent meditation course stemming from Gotama Buddha, over 2,500 years ago. Which, simply stated, is concentrating on the body, its sensations and the insight that this provides.

As a serious meditator for the past 10 years, having first practiced when I was 11 years old.  I could feel my discipline in practicing had been slacking for about two years. I signed up for Viapssana, knowing that 10 days with 10 hours a day of meditation would switch my discipline button back on.

I have done over a decade of inner growth and well being work, varying practices as a way to gain inner insight. Whether it be meditations, leadership and communication courses, detox regimes, Kundalini and Hatha Yoga,  Native American healing work, energy and sound therapy, Guru work……. I could go on….. 😉

Yet this was different than most anything I have undertaken.

It was putting effort into observation. Focus on respiration. Mindful of the sensations of the body, without allowing aversion or craving to take over, to allow old mind patterns that cause suffering and misery to become eradicated.

It sounds simple, sitting for hours, almost like a reTREAT.

Not quite. It was extremely hard work, training new parts of the mind to  work in a different way than what one is inherently programmed with.

 

The first four days were cold, stormy and rainy, trudging across the soggy grounds it felt miserable, synonymous with how my mind felt.  I couldn’t fathom how we could get through the rest of the course. It felt like one day was a week and my body felt uncomfortable sitting for so long. What gave me solace was the food. Vegetarian, delicious rice and curries and veggie dishes, soups and salads, prepared fresh every day.

At times I felt like

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Other time I felt a quality of beautiful inner

 

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Focus. Equanimity. Awareness. These were key words for the process, one that became intensely beautiful, with profound self-realizations. The technique is a practice which creates a foundation for self transformation and awareness.

The facilites we stayed at were simple, clean and nice. The break from the phone and internet to tune into the natural world was a relief, one that was much needed for my mind without any tech distractions.

The last 5 days of the course seemed to become lighter. The sun finally came out and at night the stars were vivid on the magical lands close to Yosemite. The 8th and 9th day something profound was happening, it felt as though my senses were super heightened and everything took on a technicolor hue, like a 5 dimensional quality. The silence became solace and I felt an unburdening of my layers of consciousness, which created a lighter, buoyant sense.

Vipassana is a practice, of mindfulness and awareness every moment. To be present, now. Relinquishing normal reactions to self or situations and taking a step back to allow observation to keep the mind in a place of equanimity. With discipline I feel this technique has the potential to enhance life immensely, I can sense a transformation from the 10 days.

My intentions when I left were to live a life of more joy, inner peace while radiating compassionate love.

 

xo,

Nicole

7 Tips for an Empath

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When I first wrote about being an empath, there wasn’t much on the internet sans a few articles. I have come to much of my own discoveries though trial and error, which has been a dazzling, intense process.

I’m just scratching the surface with this as this blog is my service. I have yet to make money off of it, the ads come from WordPress, not me. To clarify, being an empath is different from being empathetic. All humans have empathy and can be empathetic, unless they’re a psychopath. Where as empaths literally take on what has and is happening around them, including from others. Like a mirror to the environment they can feel people, places and events, even things that may be hidden, transforming the energy to higher vibrations. If you’re an empath know that fortifying yourself inwardly is where your true power lies and that your gift will develop to more than being an empath over time.

There are many skeptics in the world and people in status quo mindset and trying to explain what being an empath is can be futile, for you may be laughed at, as I have. Ironically, the same people who used to make fun of me, now copy off of me and my lifestyle. So, don’t let other people’s opinions of you make you become withdrawn, especially if you can feel their energies towards you and they’re not positive. You are an alluring, magnetic light with an amazing ability. Use it to empower and charge you and those around you. Just know that you know. You may attract people and become a trusted confidant, creating influence in individual and group connections, which I have seen in my own experience. I hope to see more scientific, metaphysical and psychological research into empaths in our upcoming future.

1. ENVIRONMENT:

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It is easy for empaths to adapt because of the ability to assimilate to the environment, making travel easy. Because empaths reflect others, getting sucked into other people’s fields and intentions can happen, discern the energies so as not to get swayed into something that goes against your principles. When out in public, hold and impress energy instead of always reflecting the environment. Once able to hold, presence becomes more purified, brilliant and stronger as the ability develops. Grounding and exercise are vital to finding peace within chaos and empaths tend to feel EMF’s. Be in nature if you feel bombarded. It’s understandable empaths may feel distracted even labeled add, adhd or other labels.

If you’re taking something on of someone’s  and it’s uncomfortable, you can notice it and don’t have to absorb it or play it out. It’s not yours to become. Of course we can sense douchebagery, bullshit, superficiality and misaligned intentions a mile away. That’s ok. Certain people may loathe you because of this, don’t take that on either. Just know others have their journey and stuff to work through, even if you can sense it, it’s not yours to judge. Instead, have compassion if you can.

2. PROCESSING:

 

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Empaths may need more sleep than average because of the processing that is done in sleep and the levels we take on energy. Empaths may also be more in tune with other worlds, in dreamtime or even waking time. My brilliant teachers said, I travel the Lokas, or other worlds. If you’re an empath and working in these realms, our language is limited in these arenas, again, that’s ok, you know what is being worked on in those levels. When you need the hibernation and internalizing time, don’t be afraid to state that and set proper boundaries. Since we have such a caring nature it can also take a toll on our life force if our energy and boundaries are not properly respected.

3. SUBSTANCES:

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Be aware with substances. Because empaths are such high level processors of the environment and the influx of thoughts and energy it’s easy to want to mask that with alcohol or other substances. Empaths will take on the energy of whatever is being ingested if not careful, so it’s easy to become what you’re drinking, smoking, taking, eating, etc. There is a reason they call alcohol spirits, because the energy or “spirits” of it are not always the most pleasant. As many people do not understand empaths, you need to know this for yourself because the explanations won’t be understood as to why your behavior may change. Moderation is KEY. Positive energy or blessing what you take can help.

4. BE IN YOUR BODY:

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High vibrational energizing activities can bring your life force back into focus. Connect with someone who can understand if you need to be recharged and need positive encouragement. Other ways to be in your body or engage in the present are creative projects. Organizing. Painting. Cooking. Plant life like botanical gardens. Gong baths. Mantras. Sacred places. Music. Animals. Being around children. Foods. Yoga. SALT baths. Energy work like Reiki or Acupuncture. Parties. Exercise. Ocean. Nourishing, raw foods. Nature. Anything that brings you joy. Dancing. Laughing. Intimacy. Conversation. Connecting. Meditation. Making love. 1 glass of wine, in moderation 😉

5. CLEARING:

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Many empaths are natural healers and find themselves drawn to their innate healing abilities. They may need to disengage to clear the energy they have taken on, at times, and have their space feel energetically safe. Sage is one of my favorite ways to cleanse unwanted energies over the past 10 years of burning it. Essential oils like frankincense and peppermint are really great for shifting denser vibrations into higher ones and releasing any energy that you may have taken on. Some nights I  douse my bed in lavender or frankincense spray before I get in it so that my sleep is restful and clearing. Crystals can help pull things out of the body when I lay them on me. Especially after driving in LA traffic 😉

If you’re feeling uncomfortable or heavy with someone or something else’s energy intend on it to be released and somehow, some way it will. Love is a vibration that sets everything free. I will give an easy meditation in a video next post for easy release.

When you’ve taken something on visualize it burning out with a violet flame that purifies everything on all levels.

6. PROTECT:

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To protect your energy: Visualize a light coming out of either your head or your heart depending on what suits you until it envelopes your energy in an orb around you. My profound teacher, who is also an empath said to visualize golden light around you before you leave your house every morning. Once you have fortified your inner light you will be effervescent in your ability to understand and use your gift. For in it’s essence, it is a gift. And you can beam that gift forward into the universe to impress upon it instead of it always impressing upon you.

7. TUNE IN:

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My gift has manifested in a very clear voice, sometimes images, that knows. Learning to listen to it has been a lesson. On subtle levels we know what we need to give, or not give. Tune in and trust. If you’re an empath and have taken something on, feel into it, it may have a vision, feeling, thought or smell to it. Focus and see what it carries and the energy, then breathe light into it and LET IT GO.

As my fabulous teacher said “Do not allow yourself to become a victim to it. Find something to ground yourself into your body and bring joy to you”

 

Hope this helps and I will give some more links to articles I wrote in the past about this and meditations to help below. My next post will be a guided meditation for release.

 

xo,

Nicole

 

 

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The Fall of the Feminine

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Once upon a time the God and Goddess stood together, hand in hand in love with one another and their creation in a balanced harmony.

Over time the Goddess has fallen, to her knees, weeping as she witnessed her lands and creatures wreaked by destruction. Perpetrated by bloodshed, with wars waged against her children. As she fell, she felt the pain sink deep into her heart and core, embedding itself into the genetic memory of all humans.

This became the fall of humanity’s hearts and intuitive minds. For as the feminine fell, we were thrust into harsh times. This harshness has encapsulated our race in a time capsule that censors our quest for sustenance that can be re-attuned to by going deep within.

Many hear the resonant chords in our hearts and minds of a time when the balance with the feminine was harmonious. When this suppressed information was understood, engaged with.

That which is suppressed must also be extremely powerful.

This post is not to place blame, nor focus on what has happened. It’s to uncover a deeply rooted story that has been hidden; the power of the feminine and loss of sacred knowledge and the connection to our natural cycles and rhythms. This includes the earth, all earthlings and ways of being in harmony with her and through her, the universe at large.

This is my Philosopher’s Stone if you will and a taboo subject, as the information is quite hidden, some of it destroyed. The remembering of where we come from is vitally important to me in the quest for wisdom, attainment of higher consciousness and what it represents.

Let’s just take the story I’m about to present as an allegory, or a metaphor. One that can be interpreted in many ways, yet has a similar by-product seen by the denial of our intrinsically connected nature. This fall I speak of has been one of the most suppressed pieces of information in our history. I’ve been researching different parts of it for several years. If you are interested you can do your own research as I try to keep this simple because one can definitely get sucked into a rabbit hole of it. With this plunge it’s like we’ve been cut off, like an etheric umbilical cord, from our primordial source of nature and being. Our race as a whole.

What I refer to as the patriarchial rule is not men or males, it’s the dogma, control, sublimation, domination and suppression of humans and nature through religions and corruption. The subtle and not so subtle dishonoring and shutting down the “human being” more so the feminine. This is not to disregard men or males in any way by speaking on the patriarchy or where we are as a whole. There are many men I know who are undertaking the conscious evolution of our planet in their own ways and who are completely in balance with aspects of themselves. I like to think of them as the evolved masculine, what a glory that is to behold. There are also women I know who are way out of balance with their masculine sides, as we all have both within.

While this plunge may have caused damage to our genetic experience of awakening. If there is a fall that happened, wouldn’t it also be a part of the perfect cosmic cycle of experience?

 

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AEON SOPHIA

Gnostic traditions refer to it as Aeon Sophia. The story of this force is a fascinating description of how life came to be on Earth and the attainment of wisdom through knowledge on our planet. Aeon Sophia translates as the wisdom goddess, she who took the plunge to become an organic, living force.

“Alien Dreaming: The Enigma of the Archons – The Gaia Mythos describes how the impact of the Aeon Sophia upon the density of atomic matter produced a massive fracture, like the shattered pattern on an ice pond. The pattern has a center where Sophia is located (identified by the Mandelbrot Set), and a spider-web extension of fracture lines that run in all directions (the frozen sea of fractal waves)..”

“In the second stage of the unfoldment described in Trimorphic Protennoia, the Aeon Sophia “descends to empower her fallen members by giving them spirit or breath.” (NHLE 1996, p. 511) Thus the tensile forms morph from semi-rigid seahorses into rounded fetal forms with tails, but the tails, it seems, keep falling off and turning into other embryos. By this bizarre process of self-repeating generation, the neonate horde of the Archons emerges.”

“Human beings are on a journey of awareness,
which has been momentarily interrupted by extraneous forces.”
Carlos Castaneda, Magical Passes

This is also referred to as Shekinah in Judaism. Inanna in Babylonian mythology. Persephone with Hades going into The Underworld. Shakti in Hinduism and many other names worldwide throughout history. The story of Mary Magdalen and Mother Mary may also be alluding to the fallen goddess, along with the quest for the Holy Grail. I believe many of the stories are metaphysically metaphorical for the attainment of enlightenment. In many ancient texts, there are metaphors for the alchemical philosopher’s stone; to transcend and become awakened to inner illumination and the many symbols that represent that.

The Nag Hammadi from Gnostic traditions says that Aeons are like massive dancing conscious light and emoting energy from the center of the galactic core in our galaxy. Who revel in the bliss, play, love and excitement of creating and watching those creations come about. What is said is the living, organic life on our planet, including the human species happened with the conscious dreaming intention of the joining of Aeon Sophia and Aeon Thelete. Creating little spores of DNA that were shot out into the arms of our galaxy through a tube like tendril. They then released filaments of DNA and potential life down the arms of the galaxy to reach outer planets and nestle in and become organic life in warm environments and planets where life could thrive.

Aeon Sophia, like a mother, was curious and wanted to know how her creations would come about. She left the galactic center, which was unprecedented by Aeons before that. In doing this she fell from the center of cosmic light into more dense matter. Her plume, like a shooting star, mixed with matter in the Orion star system, creating a race of archons who are like our demented, degenerate cosmic siblings. Or so the story goes.

The earth hosting the DNA that her and Thelete dreamt up, she then came into the earth as a living breathing force that was once a dancing light from the center of our galaxy, with the ability to dream into form from her force, to protect us as well as oversee her archontic creations. We, as the human race and living earth and earthlings are the emanations of her lucid dreaming.

This knowledge and wisdom have been forsaken and hidden from the forefront of our collective perspective. What we have been taught instead, through much propaganda and the conditioning of our culture, is a misalignment by placing power outside of Self, instead of awakening the power within. Let’s just say these misaligned forces urge humanity to give intrinsic power away, to listen without discerning what truth it; truth is known within, there are many paths and teachers to light that way.

The organic force is a power so intelligent we can’t begin to comprehend it. The patriarchy shadow has consisted of brutality and control masking as superiority, attainment and collecting of materialistic urges. This is not to negate technology and living comfortably, for I simply love it yet it’s pertinent to create a balance for our future and future generations.

Do you think we use technology as a mask to a deeply un-rooted issue of having lost our connection to our sacred planet, who is alive and teeming with universal intelligence?

This intelligence can be seen in the simplest living thing like a shell or plant, holding the Fibonacci sequence, or golden ratio.

The wool has been pulled over our eyes for many millenia. Creating fear, separation, rifts of fearing what is different steeped so deep that it has disconnected us from our own essence, nature and connection to one another. This is displayed in the shadow domination of the collective in how we treat each other, animals and our earth if we sense there is a difference or something to be feared or the cruelty and abuse that happens.

Most human beings are doing their best given their state of circumstances and environment. This is not to say there aren’t the pathos, or mutations, which occurs in all living things on our planet.

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ORGONE

I wrote briefly about this years ago, links are below for some meditations to connect to this ether, orgone, prana matter. This earth energy I speak of has been scientifically studied, although no surprise, suppressed. It was harnessed and observed by scientist Dr. Wilhelm Reich who coined the term Orgone. In the US, where we are supposed to have free speech, Dr. Reich’s work was confiscated and destroyed because it went in direct opposition to the pharmaceutical industry at the time. He created an Orgone accumulator that could heal disease, with the harnessing of Orgone; Earth’s own erotic energy or Aeon Sophia.

“And shortly after arriving coined the term “orgone” – from “orgasm” and “organism” – for a biological energy he said he had discovered, which he said others called God. “ -Wikipedia

“Charged with contempt in 1956 for having violated the injunction, Reich was sentenced to two years’ imprisonment, and that summer over six tons of his publications were burned by order of the court.[n 2] He died in prison of heart failure just over a year later, days before he was due to apply for parole.[15]”

The shadow side of the elite, political system, banks and corporations are pawns to their own greed, corruption and pathology with the mentality that power lies in control, censorship and greed. True power does not control, nor deceive in order to gain materially. True power loves, gives and receives, being a source of itself

“On August 23, six tons of Reich’s books, journals and papers were burned in New York, in the Gansevoort incinerator, the public incinerator on 25th Street. The material included copies of several of his books, including The Sexual Revolution, Character Analysis and The Mass Psychology of Fascism.”

“It has been cited as one of the worst examples of censorship in U.S. history.[n 2] As with the accumulators, the FDA was supposed only to observe the destruction.”

Over the past few millenia our sexual natures have also been suppressed. Whether looked at as taboo, sinful or carnally objectified to the physical through porn; this suppression has stripped away the exquisite sensations of learning the presence of mind/body/spirit and the art of sacred sensuality/sexuality as one of the many pathways to enlightenment, the human body as a tool through inner alchemy.  There is a great power in this alchemical process this that seems to be purposely concealed and diluted.

Has this information and more that we may not ever know, been hidden to keep us locked into a disempowering cycle?

To shut down our potential of aligning the neo cortex with the reptilian brain or hindbrain, in doing so activating higher centers and the evolution of our DNA?

By using breath, it can open up energy pathways to what’s known as nirvana, or Turiya which rise up the energy channels. Breath is connected to Orgone and being grounded in the body with the many tools that connect one to it, allows for clarity of life to present itself and know what truth is internally by accessing the higher states of awareness.

Perhaps allow the memory of Aeon Sophia to re-surface. I urge you, don’t take my words for it, feel what is true to you.

It’s simple and doesn’t have to be convoluted to a point of breaking down logically, for this is a sensory, intuitive and intelligent living force that is a cosmic play of life as we experience it.

If one just lets it happen, the intentionality is enough to open the doors to the inner realms and taking the step will be up to each person who is willing. Using the will with intuition becomes the sacred marriage, doing with being, ultimate alchemy.

I have a book/movie idea that I am writing that ties into this. Fingers crossed.

xo,

Nicole

 

 

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10 Ways To Raise Your Vibration

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Everything in our universe vibrates at a certain frequency, matter is energy and energy is constantly oscillating. We perceive reality with our senses, which sense the harmonics of these vibrations and resonate at certain frequencies and so does everything.

On the simplest level negative thoughts, actions, words and deeds have lower frequencies while positive ones are higher. This is the duality of our existence that creates a universal balance in our experience on this plane as conscious human beings, able to experience matter in physical form.

What we think, say and feel attract the harmonics of a similar vibration, a pattern that is like a magnet to a pattern of a similar nature. Like attracts like. We are superconductors of consciousness evolving at a rapid pace every day. Our mental, physical, emotional and spiritual selves all resonate at certain frequencies.

I notice when my vibration is higher, more elevated experiences are attracted my way and when I’m at a lower vibration I experience more resistance with manifesting what I truly desire and deriving the joy of a higher vibratory nature.

Sometimes we may not even be aware that we attracted an experience to us because it is a lodged subconscious vibration, that is where awareness of self and self-actualization come into play. Taking ownership of your experience creates liberation. Awareness then allows you to change any pattern if you so desire, to create a reality that is truly what you wish for.

That being said, we can consciously raise our vibrations to attract higher vibrational experiences in alignment with our highest state of being. Our soul’s purpose is to experience this life at our fullest expression, however that may mean to each of us individually.

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Below are some ways to Raise your Vibration:

Appreciation
By focusing on what is working in your life and conjuring up appreciation your mind and being will naturally create a magnet to more thoughts and experiences of what you appreciate. Figuratively, wearing rose-colored glasses for 1 minute or more will help you to see the beauty of what is here and now. Write a list of everything you are grateful for, create a gratitude jar and put little gratitudes in there daily and see what happens after a month.

Water
Our bodies are composed of 90% water. Water has a consciousness of it’s own, like blood, it responds to our thoughts. I always give love to water before I drink it, so that it carries a vibration of love and healing for my body. I recently read an article stating that water is older than our planet, which is quite fascinating if you think about where it comes from. Going in the ocean or lake, or even a bath can raise your vibration.

Dancing and Laughing
One of our most primal instincts dating back to the beginning of our species, dancing is not only good exercise, but integrating simultaneous movement with sound is a way to be with the moment. A guru I used to see said that by dancing we release our karma from our beings. Laughing is the best medicine, and can transform a situation or mindset.

Breathing
Breath is life, it is our consciousness, the air we breathe is what keeps us going. Yoga is the practice of breath in many forms, it incorporates breath work like Pranayama, breath of fire or similar. You can also do simple box breathing which is inhaling for 5 seconds and hold for 5 seconds, exhale 5 seconds and hold for 5 seconds and repeat 5-10 times. Or simply take deep inhales and exhales until you feel a shift in yourself.

Food
I think this is one of the most important things that has slipped through the cracks of our current society. The importance of living, vibrating foods had been known since the dawn of our times yet with industrialization we’ve let that knowledge burn on the back burner which has left us with more processed, dead foods that do not nourish our beings the way we need to have higher vibrations. Any raw fruit, vegetable or seed is super juicy way to get higher vibes.

Sound Harmonics
Whether it’s music that is uplifting or binaural beats that help synchronize your brain to different waves, sound is a vibration and different sounds have different frequencies. Listen to something that has a powerful or positive message, or is happy or guided meditations. At the end of this article is a video that shows, incredibly, how sand forms geometic patterns to different HZ’s, sound is healing to the body and I’ll address that more in a separate post.

Grounding
Touching the earth, sand, grass and being in nature creates ions that are healing and protecting to the body. Touching the earth for 20 minutes or longer with bare feet or hands connects the electromagnetic energy of the earth to the body and creates a circuit that helps the vibrations of earth enter the body most easily. Since our physical bodies come from this earth and go back to it, I think of it like returning to inner nature when out in nature.

Scents
The scent glands have a huge play in how we feel and what we’re experiencing, our sense of smell can unwillingly create comfort or discomfort. Essential oils have different properties and create varying effects in our brain and our experience. I will go into more detail about this in a separate post, but for now try using lavender, frankincense or lemon oil to raise your vibration. Or light a beautifully scented candle, or burn sage or Palo Santo and see how you feel afterwards.

Crystals
I was watching an episode of Ancient Aliens last night, they were theorizing that crystals have encoded information from the star nations in them. These super conductors, used in computers and watches also have a profound effect on us as well. Holding them, or having them in your home can help you vibrate at a higher frequency. You can also put your intentions into crystals and see how those manifestations come about.

Love
The simplest way in my opinion to raise the vibration. Feel love, really feel the expansive, gooey, warm, blissful feeling the heart is capable of giving. Feel it for your significant other, family, friends, for your self, those who love you, expand it into your field, into your home, work and life. Bring the heart to everything you do and see how your life is carried along the waves of love.

Try these out, see what your experience is and the effects afterwards. My hope is that your vibration is raised in some form or another and you are able to experience the bliss of purposeful conscious awareness of right now, as it is.

How is your vibration?

xo,
Nicole

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Dream, Play, Laugh and Create

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Be who YOU are, not who the WORLD wants you to be.
And for a rundown of my lowdown let me debrief.

Over the past few months I’ve been intro-, extro-, retro- reflective, respectively. Physically and mentally asserting passages to create a new learning curve for myself, which I’ll elaborate on in a future post. This has caused many breakthroughs about the woman I am, the girl I was and still love, most importantly what I’m creating myself to be.

Fortified with the realization that this is on rise of building a new model of definition of success for myself.

Right now, I feel supported to create a world around me that reflects my inner vision of what I wish to see. To me this means remembering not to take life so seriously and sticking up for what I believe in a way that creates fun, excitement and ease.

Growing up in the most youthful way with structured spontaneity spontaneously structuring. I’m reflecting on the emergence of an excitement that seemed fleeting, evading me since I’d been so heady with thoughts and caring about frivolity that doesn’t have as much meaning now.

I have undertaken redefining success for my life and have come to the conclusion that success without love, passion, excitement and fun is not success to me. The modern model of success is missing heart and the ability to have youthful expression of silliness, innocence and spontaneity. I don’t buy into it and actually think it feels antiquated.

I have been inspired and challenged to push through my blockades in ways I’ve never faced before, connecting to parts of myself that have lain dormant until recently.
I contribute much of this growth to being pushed out of my comfort zone into movement and action and most importantly being surrounded by a loving family and community that is an inspirational structure to create my life into being.

So let me present you with thoughts I’ve pondered.

The societal expectations from childhood and up build into this thing called becoming an “adult”. Which in our current world can be so serious and dry at times.
As we age we enter established structures of education and peer groups. In them we’re conditioned to restructure our expressions, quieting them, turning off the imagination in place of distraction and attainment, shutting down our child’s mind. Devoid of the playfulness and dreamlands that captures childlike innocence it can feel like we’re working within a huge machine of a system. A life of doing what is needed from society in place of reference to who and what we are, or to be, within the hierarchy.

Ok, understood, I get it. The structure has value and I applaud it for the many years it has provided comfort and security for those whom it has. Yet, I truly believe a new structure is coming into place, one written by our future and not our past. To me climbing for capital gain and attainment, with the goal to hopefully capture the childlike excitement again is a paradoxical, boring cycle
With so much value placed on attaining and gaining I pose the question again, where is true happiness found?

Mine is in expression of loving life, who I am and those around me, excitedly. With comforts being met, it’s also important to me to be a caring, loving person to those around me. Manifesting beauty, harmony and joy on the physical plane.

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Dreaming and Playing:

In becoming an adult I think the most important aspect to remember is our inner child and nurture it into play again.
Underneath the aging that has occurred a part of that child is within us all. In fantastical places creating worlds upon worlds of imaginative dreamlands.

And why not?

Quintessentially the inner artist is an aspect of the inner child.
Let go of the expectations of your adult life for a moment and think about what you wanted to be as a child, is that still a part of your living dream?

The heart resides in innocence and fun.
While I’m an adult, I’ve also learned to nurture my inner child, lending to me tremendously through transformative periods. I strive to be in laughter and wonder when setbacks come up.
Coming into the excitement and playfulness with children, like a child, is where living takes on a new experience. Loving life is innocent, in the moment, present and aware with just being and experiencing what is, here and now.
Children in their dreamlands and imaginations don’t care about judgement, they imagine and create.
Hearing children laugh and play liberates my inner child to let go of the dry conditions of what can become my adult world. Promoting learning, creativity, playing, singing, dancing, being silly and inquisitive to a world that I see with child’s eyes that were asleep for some time.

My request from you is to let your inner child out, it will cause youthful expression.
Do what it is that brings up the exuberance you know yourself to be childlike with. Have fun with life in a way that inspires your youthful heart’s desire. Play on the swings, skip, laugh, be playful, create, paint, dance, make up imaginary worlds free of judgement that infiltrates adult living. If people take you seriously than that’s their issue, not yours. There is nothing wrong with being a creative mindscape to imagine from, the imagination at work is beyond comprehension of realms we live in.

Where do you think our most creative pieces and brilliant inventions came from?

Where is your inner child now?

xo,
Nicole

Fluid to Make Waves

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And the water was where I was standing, in a river where two diverging paths became one. Bubbling and flowing around me, I let go of everything I was holding onto into this healing place and a peace enfolded me.
I was reminded that many paths lead to the source, whatever that Source may be, separate paths converge to diverge again, naturally.
After being so much like air and earth lately, I am reminded to become more fluid again like this powerful flowing river.

I fill myself with the essence of what is the surrounding environment. The trees and plants nourished by the water that flows fluidly, moving over the rocks and earth that become eroded by continual movement. The wood, trees and plants providing home and food for the animals and insects to survive upon. My totem hawk flying above representing my free spirit, in the air that gives breath to life, with the fiery Sun beaming down.

All elements are needed to sustain an ecosystem. As a small piece of the whole, becoming one with the environment, whatever it may be, brings clarity and purity.

As I’m meditating in the tranquility, I remember that becoming like water means letting go of attachment to desires, wants, needs, possibilities and outcomes to allow the flow to lead me where I’m meant to go. Flowing around obstacles fluidly creates peace of mind. Rather than resisting or turning away, which feeds energy to what’s not working, I choose to see life for how it exists right now.

Going through my Saturn return over the past year and a half have been what I would call a shift in the way I perceive my outer world. Rather than “trying” , which is a futile term, to manifest all of my separate visions and dreams into existence, I am learning to create by simply being.
My inner world has been fortified with truth, which becomes fluid as I evolve more fully into the potential that exists. I realize with new inward learning that it’s not about my belief in my dreams and goals or the outer reality, it’s my belief in myself.

I fully believe in me.

A deep truth, overlaid by the deeper truth derived from all the inner work I’ve done over the years. One that is unshakeable in its very core.

That truth is

I accept and love what is, life, living, being…….

Like the many states of water, I may continually shift, evolve and change, yet, my essence will always remain the same. Understood by the outer world or not. No thing, no one, no experience will ever shake it, it’s found outside all ego attachment and identity defined through outer means. It is a presence within that is continually unfolding like a lotus blossoming. As this never-ending flower of self unfurls gorgeous petals, I reinforce my truth …

I love my life, it’s perfect right now and continually blows my mind with organic beauty that is a flow. Exploring this creation I have…. being, here, now, continuously with gratitude for living. The same source of consciousness that resides in me resides in everything.

xo,

Nicole

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My Underworld

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A cycle has completed, its finality brings with it complexity and understanding of my dark and light nature. The illustrious owl perched at my side, illuminating shadows to see more clearly.

This time period was a lifetime of its own.

On New Year’s 2007,the Owl appeared, with his yellow, penetrating eyes, beckoning me to view the inner depths I was seeking.
“Be Careful” were his wise words to me as I plunged into the depths of my deep and murky underworld.

Nothing could hide from his intense stare as we traveled the river Styx in search of all the ghosts and demons that were lurking.

This world was fraught with seduction and temptation. A place where phantasmorphic figures rose as distorted illusions that seemed oh, so, real. I would gaze around this illusory world to phantoms represented by societal perceptions as well as my own ideas, ones I held as superficial truths of who and what I was.

No longer

My truths became highlighted as inner workings of subconscious patterns were revealed. Deeply imbedded cycles within me, family and society came to my waking mind. Bringing the information back to the conscious surface, I would then be strengthened with the knowledge of what I had accrued.

“Trust Yourself”

This thought was my anchor, even when I couldn’t fathom understanding it.

Many experiences over these years were bright, light and love-filled, giving me a point of reference to base my truth upon. Receiving glimpses of an enlightened state, I would come back to the reality of patterns instilled within me and humanity. Disheartening and downright suffocating at times, haunting and deliberating moments of facing shadows of myself and others.
Occurrences and people were a mirror to shadows of mine, realized over the past 6 years. My subconscious would attract what I needed to see to be freed of my inner limitations and illusions. Coming up for a breath, I would have complete epiphanies, my world would shift around them to witness the glory of an awareness far beyond my consciousness.
Witnessing the beauty of who I was uncovering; the real me.

The depths while murky held rapture within themselves, a shroud that when the light shone in became illuminated strength.

Giving gratitude the whole time as I knew that when experiencing pain it was my epoch of strengthening.

The owl made its presence known again 3 years later, while I was immersed in a world of soul seeking and a vision quest. It’s wing almost brushing my cheek, I thanked it for showing its presence so visibly. Just when I thought I was complete with this underworld, after a lapse of time I heard the owl whisper in my ear.

“Go Deeper”

Through the years I dove farther into the swampy muck of personal and collective patterns. My purpose to cut free karma from myself and the underbelly of our reality, that which no longer serves me and those surrounding me.
Being sucked into the depths, like a puzzle, I began to make sense of the patterns displayed.

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Morphing and shifting, these ghosts of patterns would show up around different turns. Tempting me with their ideas, sucking me into their spheres, giving access to what they deemed important. With the power of who I was, it was my choice to feed them or watch as they vanished from my existence with the upsurge of inner realizations.
My scythe was love, acceptance and surrendering. I would cut them free and remind myself, with the owl perched on my shoulder…..

“Remember who you are, that is your unshakeable force. No matter who or what any person says, you are you and that space will never be forsaken. For that is your individual essence in this multifarious existence”

It was only an illusion.
That is not real,

To me.

As though they never were in the first place, these ghosts of disillusionments caused by conditioning to deep extents would all but vanish from my perception. Like phantoms of the past they became nothing more than distant memories.

Overwhelming at times, with the seductions and temptation of focusing on ideas, emotions, experiences, thoughts and conditions that I knew deep down were not my highest truth.

Ultimately; The illusions of Ego.

The presence of the owl has made itself known again, this time letting me know this cycle is through. Surfacing, I have an understanding of who I am.
My underworld traversed, ghosts released with intentions and motives that mirrored these old parts of me witnessed to their extinction.
I have come out of the other side of Hades, awakened and aware, knowing and clear.

The realization of the illusion has penetrated my waking mind. In that there is a part of me laughing, this game of life has become quite easy.
I know that only empowerment, positivity and love will come from this, with strength, knowing and trust in myself. The ways in which I gave my inner power away into illusions are now in place of inner empowerment, feeding me and those around me with the goodness of life.

For it was my choice what I fed all along.

 

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Joy Freeman

I understand this as part of my Kundalini’s journey.
A process aligning my subconscious, conscious and superconscious.
My filters and experience reconditioned to bring me insight into myself and others. And that to me, is the most enlightened I can become; right now.

All is of my choosing and I take full responsibility for what I think, do, speak and experience. I am no longer victim, martyr, scapegoat or any of the other roles I may have created from these murky patterns that have been freed.

I am at a clear slate, where any and everything can be created. It is up to me what I feed, love and focus on, give to and create.
With consciousness comes the great responsibility to BE, as we were all created to BE.

Over time aware of the awareness behind thinking, the all-pervasive existence that just is.

Questioning from this place when thinking,

Are you fear or love based and do you serve my highest?

This is where questioning the ego comes full circle.

Is it ego questioning ego?

Or is there a higher intelligent consciousness in place?

Yes, the dark will fall, and in its place is illuminated grace.

Whoever said it was a quick process to become awakened to our inner enlightenment?

xo ,

Nicole

Of course, the detailed experiences will be lit up in my book….. 😉

Kundalini Awakening 2

Kundalini Awakening

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“Kundalini is the evolutionary mechanism in man. It is slowly but inexorably leading mankind towards a higher state of consciousness…Kundalini performs no less important a function, not only for the individual but for the whole of the race…It is at work every moment of our lives in building the brain and the nervous system, and it is therefore most necessary for the safety of mankind that some people deeply interested in it arouse this power so that the world might benefit by their experience.”

Kundalini is a life-force of its own intelligence and design. When it becomes awakened it comes with it a great, overwhelming power that clears and re-patterns many systems, mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is the internal force in the body to heal itself.

I truly believe that when awakened it naturally starts to re-pattern the DNA. Like Kali, this energy seeks and destroys all that is not in the highest divine alignment of the individual who is awakening. Kundalini allows one to wake up to higher consciousness and potential. It imparts within the ability to look above and beyond, at times superseding duality in our 3d reality.

A radiant, powerful, light-filled energy that is red/orangey/pinkish. When awakened this energy rises up through the channels also known as nadis or meridians, into all the chakras and finally the hypothalamus. Over time filling the entire body with its energy. This awakens and lights up the pineal and pituitary glands while also starting to rewire the whole nervous system.

Kundalini energy sits at the base of the spine like a coiled cobra. It is an inexhaustible life force that has been spoken about in texts from the inception of written word, far beyond any one religion or spiritual practice. Carl Jung and many others have addressed it, referring to it as the superconsciousness.

“The researcher, philosopher-scientist Gopi Krishna, proposes the existence of a region in the human brain, a faculty of supersensory perception normally dormant, which can be awakened to activity by certain practices. Quantum physics has confirmed that the mind of the observer influences what can be observed (see “The Reality Tests,” Seed Magazine, June 4, 2008).

It is the next process within humanity’s evolution.
The energy is said to come from the same energy as our reproductive systems, and when worked properly with another it can build the Kundalini. When working on awakening (enlightenment) it is said to happen through abstaining from sexual contact with another, at first for building it within oneself. This is due to energy rising upward for evolution, downward for reproduction.

“The process of evolution is a continuous one. One cannot say positively at what height man will arrive ultimately, but the next higher stage after human consciousness is a state of higher awareness so extraordinary and blissful that the recipient of this grace is lost in wonder when he or she attains to it. What do you call that consciousness? We can call it superconsciousness, the Turiya state, Nirvana, or even a divine consciousness.”

“Both genius and illumination are the outcome of the activity of Kundalini. When this mighty force enters the conscious centre the individual is then not only illumined but also possesses genius.”

“All spring from the evolutionary impulse in the human body…The goal of all religions is certainly one, and that is to have a higher state of consciousness”

“Great ideas come through individuals, and they can change the world. But an individual is also the product of a group. We lack in great prophets in this age because the society is allotting the place of honour to material progress.”

“The condition of society is the greatest impetus in the production of religious (Kundalini) geniuses. The present world lacks in something that is favourable to the growth of individuals of vision.”

Awakened individuals are like sparks in the collective consciouness, spurring awakening in others. As we are moving into higher brain cognition as a race, we integrate our neo-mammalian brain structure with the awakening of our hypothalamus.
As we all awaken more, it will create a structure for us to move beyond mammalian tendencies. Thus it will raise the consciousness of the lower brain functions to more wholly serve our earth and race.

The energy, when worked upward, is completely mind-blowing. There are many ways to facilitate it. My journey consisted of a 6 year process from recognizing it, to full awakening, to the repatterning of my nervous system. Which has not been the smoothest process.

I could feel my Kundalini the first time when I was 23. Ignoring it for a few of years, I felt it awaken subtly in New Mexico. This consisted of my shadowy patterns surfacing and my lower back was constantly in pain.

From there I resided for a bit in the powerful lands of Hawaii, of the smoldering and alchemical volcanos, metaphorical for the process I was in. I underwent a semi-awakening, that stopped at my throat. Then, a couple of weeks later my Kundalini became fully awakened. This rising happened while I was driving around the big island.

I was consciously breathing deeply when everything went white. Blinded, I had to pull over. My limbs were completely numb with an intense buzzing feeling. I felt the flow travel up into my head, like a circuit as though it went up and out of me.

There was a lapse in time of 20-30 minutes while the powerful and intense energy worked through me. It was blissful, yet overwhelming, like an electrical current running through me. My mind was in an intense hyper-conscious mode, which included incidences with a friend afterwards where all the electricity went out talking about the experience, twice.

It takes a couple of months up to 12 years for a Kundalini awakening to come to full fruition. I still go through rewiring from time to time it comes in waves. My experience with it is not one of a completely disciplined spiritual/monastic life, as what is suggested. At times it has caused mishap when I go too far out of balance.

The purity of everything lends itself to me, I’ve noticed that which is not of my purest source falls away from my life. As it works through me, the intelligence of it wants to experience the life I lead. Through my range of emotions, while building enjoyment, enlightenment, happiness, while creatively expressing through me with music, writing, dance and interaction. A balanced existence of the feminine force of physical with the masculine non-physical.

The ultimate alchemy.

It’s now easier for me to bring the energy up on command and go into the place of whiteness (samadhi), which feels like orgasmic bliss throughout my whole being when I reach it.

I could go on this topic post after post, but instead I’ll let you be guided to your own process and research within it. Below is a breathing practice for you if you’d like, as well as articles I highly suggest.

How is your Kundalini?

xo,

Nicole

Kundalini Breathing

I will give you the breathing exercise, one of the many out there that works for me to get in touch with Kundalini
It consists of visualizing on a deep inhale in your abdomen filling up with light. Either white or the pinkish orange I addressed. On every inhale picture the energy filling with light and on the exhale visualize it starting to rise in two channels like a double helix or figure 8’s through every chakra. Do it slowly as you visualize the energy rising up into your hypothalamus where the energy pours into your Pineal gland. It then pushes upward out of your Crown Chakra Pouring back down the “front channels” up and down the legs and then back again into the “coiled snake”. You can practice this continuously and is a great way to get in touch with your Kundalini.
Hatha Yoga is a gradual way to build it, while Kundalini Yoga builds it much quicker.
The articles below I highly suggest reading if you are interested in more information.

UPDATE as of 2016:

I have found it tremendously difficult releasing some internal blocks and I was recreating unhealthy patterns, which is obviously a part of awakening. Especially in a society that does not promote the type of cultivation and encouragement needed for Kundalini’s awakening process. It has been a challenge at times remembering the power of it and to move beyond what my ego wants into remembering my soul purpose and path. I found instead trying to numb the intensity to fit into a mold that isn’t authentically me, in a world of status quo. Of course, time always allows the energy to transcend any blocks mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually and even I think genetically. Like I said, it hasn’t been the smoothest process, yet I feel so much more aligned with who I am; shadows and light, so as to bring my awareness to its highest state to unlock hidden potential, within myself and others.

 

I gave part 1 of this article in the last post, which is where quotes above were taken from:

ELUCIDATION OF THE GLOBAL HUMAN EVOLUTION OF CONSCIOUSNESS BY GOPI KRISHNA (PT 2 OF 2)

http://yachnayoga.wordpress.com/2012/05/15/824/

Kundalini Awakening Symptoms

Info on Chakras:

Raging Chakras

More Breathing exercises:

Pranayama

Divine Feminine Christ Consciousness

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The Divine Feminine Consciousness is arising again. It is unstoppable in its frequency, growing and beaming onto our planet, its essence is purity. The reverence for it brings wisdom of inner divinity, love and clarity. The Divine Feminine Consciousness is the birthing place for all of creation, it is the breeding ground for all we know and don’t know. A place of love, understanding and compassion to be re-aligned to again, on our planet.

This knowledge can no longer be controlled nor hidden. That which has been controlling knowledge of our individual truth and power shall be relinquished. So that we may collectively awaken to our individual sovereignty and collective continuity.

For thousands of years the controlling powers have been keeping this ancient wisdom and knowledge of the Divine Feminine from us. From Shakti in Hinduism to Sophia in Christianity and Gnosticism to Shekinah in Judiasm. We have been lead surreptitiously into truths that do not honor the divine feminine inwardly and outwardly. This does not mean being a female, it is information and energy that all humans carry the knowledge of deep in our genetic memory.

This energy is coming in waves to our collective, lulling us into a subtle transmutation as it heals. Allowing those who seek to awake from the slumber we have been put under. This flaming light brings with it purification; like a fire to all that no longer serves our species highest divine evolution and design.

Love is the un-mutable force of the Divine Feminine.

It is the time in human history for the merging of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine consciousness to unfold. This consciousness shall help seed our race, allowing us to be the guardians and loving caretakers for our planet, people and all species.

We can all open up to the many ways the divine feminine consciousness may flow through. Set the intention to get in touch with it and allow it to subtly move through you, through the top of your head down  into the tips of your toes. Imagine yourself like a tree, growing roots deep into the earth where you soak up the nurturing healing qualities of her and let that flow through you.

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xo,

Nicole

Christ consciousness for Christianity and also refers to Kundalini: Christ Consciousness

The Shekinah from Judiasm: Image of the Divine Feminine

The Holy Spirit Feminine Aspect of the Godhead: Holy Spirit/ Shekinah

More I just read about the Divine Feminine energies from a different source:

Divine Feminine

Image above from http://www.exohuman.com/wordpress/2011/01/the-fall-of-the-wisdom-goddess/