The Fall of the Feminine

Once upon a time the God and Goddess stood together, hand in hand in love with one another and their creation in a balanced harmony.

Over time the Goddess has fallen, to her knees, weeping as she witnessed her lands and creatures wreaked by destruction. Perpetrated by bloodshed, with wars waged against her children. As she fell, she felt the pain sink deep into her heart and core, embedding itself into the genetic memory of all humans.

This became the fall of humanity’s hearts and intuitive minds. For as the feminine fell, we were thrust into harsh times. This harshness has encapsulated our race in a time capsule that censors our quest for sustenance that can be re-attuned to by going deep within.

Many hear the resonant chords in our hearts and minds of a time when the balance with the feminine was harmonious. When this suppressed information was understood, engaged with.

That which is suppressed must also be extremely powerful.

This post is not to place blame, nor focus on what has happened. It’s to uncover a deeply rooted story that has been hidden; the power of the feminine and loss of sacred knowledge and the connection to our natural cycles and rhythms. This includes the earth, all earthlings and ways of being in harmony with her and through her, the universe at large.

This is my Philosopher’s Stone if you will and a taboo subject, as the information is quite hidden, some of it destroyed. The remembering of where we come from is vitally important to me in the quest for wisdom, attainment of higher consciousness and what it represents.

Let’s just take the story I’m about to present as an allegory, or a metaphor. One that can be interpreted in many ways, yet has a similar by-product seen by the denial of our intrinsically connected nature. This fall I speak of has been one of the most suppressed pieces of information in our history. I’ve been researching different parts of it for several years. If you are interested you can do your own research as I try to keep this simple because one can definitely get sucked into a rabbit hole of it. With this plunge it’s like we’ve been cut off, like an etheric umbilical cord, from our primordial source of nature and being. Our race as a whole.

What I refer to as the patriarchial rule is not men or males, it’s the dogma, control, sublimation, domination and suppression of humans and nature through religions and corruption. The subtle and not so subtle dishonoring and shutting down the “human being” more so the feminine. This is not to disregard men or males in any way by speaking on the patriarchy or where we are as a whole. There are many men I know who are undertaking the conscious evolution of our planet in their own ways and who are completely in balance with aspects of themselves. I like to think of them as the evolved masculine, what a glory that is to behold. There are also women I know who are way out of balance with their masculine sides, as we all have both within.

While this plunge may have caused damage to our genetic experience of awakening. If there is a fall that happened, wouldn’t it also be a part of the perfect cosmic cycle of experience?




Gnostic traditions refer to it as Aeon Sophia. The story of this force is a fascinating description of how life came to be on Earth and the attainment of wisdom through knowledge on our planet. Aeon Sophia translates as the wisdom goddess, she who took the plunge to become an organic, living force.

“Alien Dreaming: The Enigma of the Archons – The Gaia Mythos describes how the impact of the Aeon Sophia upon the density of atomic matter produced a massive fracture, like the shattered pattern on an ice pond. The pattern has a center where Sophia is located (identified by the Mandelbrot Set), and a spider-web extension of fracture lines that run in all directions (the frozen sea of fractal waves)..”

“In the second stage of the unfoldment described in Trimorphic Protennoia, the Aeon Sophia “descends to empower her fallen members by giving them spirit or breath.” (NHLE 1996, p. 511) Thus the tensile forms morph from semi-rigid seahorses into rounded fetal forms with tails, but the tails, it seems, keep falling off and turning into other embryos. By this bizarre process of self-repeating generation, the neonate horde of the Archons emerges.”

“Human beings are on a journey of awareness,
which has been momentarily interrupted by extraneous forces.”
Carlos Castaneda, Magical Passes

This is also referred to as Shekinah in Judaism. Inanna in Babylonian mythology. Persephone with Hades going into The Underworld. Shakti in Hinduism and many other names worldwide throughout history. The story of Mary Magdalen and Mother Mary may also be alluding to the fallen goddess, along with the quest for the Holy Grail. I believe many of the stories are metaphysically metaphorical for the attainment of enlightenment. In many ancient texts, there are metaphors for the alchemical philosopher’s stone; to transcend and become awakened to inner illumination and the many symbols that represent that.

The Nag Hammadi from Gnostic traditions says that Aeons are like massive dancing conscious light and emoting energy from the center of the galactic core in our galaxy. Who revel in the bliss, play, love and excitement of creating and watching those creations come about. What is said is the living, organic life on our planet, including the human species happened with the conscious dreaming intention of the joining of Aeon Sophia and Aeon Thelete. Creating little spores of DNA that were shot out into the arms of our galaxy through a tube like tendril. They then released filaments of DNA and potential life down the arms of the galaxy to reach outer planets and nestle in and become organic life in warm environments and planets where life could thrive.

Aeon Sophia, like a mother, was curious and wanted to know how her creations would come about. She left the galactic center, which was unprecedented by Aeons before that. In doing this she fell from the center of cosmic light into more dense matter. Her plume, like a shooting star, mixed with matter in the Orion star system, creating a race of archons who are like our demented, degenerate cosmic siblings. Or so the story goes.

The earth hosting the DNA that her and Thelete dreamt up, she then came into the earth as a living breathing force that was once a dancing light from the center of our galaxy, with the ability to dream into form from her force, to protect us as well as oversee her archontic creations. We, as the human race and living earth and earthlings are the emanations of her lucid dreaming.

This knowledge and wisdom have been forsaken and hidden from the forefront of our collective perspective. What we have been taught instead, through much propaganda and the conditioning of our culture, is a misalignment by placing power outside of Self, instead of awakening the power within. Let’s just say these misaligned forces urge humanity to give intrinsic power away, to listen without discerning what truth it; truth is known within, there are many paths and teachers to light that way.

The organic force is a power so intelligent we can’t begin to comprehend it. The patriarchy shadow has consisted of brutality and control masking as superiority, attainment and collecting of materialistic urges. This is not to negate technology and living comfortably, for I simply love it yet it’s pertinent to create a balance for our future and future generations.

Do you think we use technology as a mask to a deeply un-rooted issue of having lost our connection to our sacred planet, who is alive and teeming with universal intelligence?

This intelligence can be seen in the simplest living thing like a shell or plant, holding the Fibonacci sequence, or golden ratio.

The wool has been pulled over our eyes for many millenia. Creating fear, separation, rifts of fearing what is different steeped so deep that it has disconnected us from our own essence, nature and connection to one another. This is displayed in the shadow domination of the collective in how we treat each other, animals and our earth if we sense there is a difference or something to be feared or the cruelty and abuse that happens.

Most human beings are doing their best given their state of circumstances and environment. This is not to say there aren’t the pathos, or mutations, which occurs in all living things on our planet.



I wrote briefly about this years ago, links are below for some meditations to connect to this ether, orgone, prana matter. This earth energy I speak of has been scientifically studied, although no surprise, suppressed. It was harnessed and observed by scientist Dr. Wilhelm Reich who coined the term Orgone. In the US, where we are supposed to have free speech, Dr. Reich’s work was confiscated and destroyed because it went in direct opposition to the pharmaceutical industry at the time. He created an Orgone accumulator that could heal disease, with the harnessing of Orgone; Earth’s own erotic energy or Aeon Sophia.

“And shortly after arriving coined the term “orgone” – from “orgasm” and “organism” – for a biological energy he said he had discovered, which he said others called God. “ -Wikipedia

“Charged with contempt in 1956 for having violated the injunction, Reich was sentenced to two years’ imprisonment, and that summer over six tons of his publications were burned by order of the court.[n 2] He died in prison of heart failure just over a year later, days before he was due to apply for parole.[15]”

The shadow side of the elite, political system, banks and corporations are pawns to their own greed, corruption and pathology with the mentality that power lies in control, censorship and greed. True power does not control, nor deceive in order to gain materially. True power loves, gives and receives, being a source of itself

On August 23, six tons of Reich’s books, journals and papers were burned in New York, in the Gansevoort incinerator, the public incinerator on 25th Street. The material included copies of several of his books, including The Sexual Revolution, Character Analysis and The Mass Psychology of Fascism.”

“It has been cited as one of the worst examples of censorship in U.S. history.[n 2] As with the accumulators, the FDA was supposed only to observe the destruction.”

Over the past few millenia our sexual natures have also been suppressed. Whether looked at as taboo, sinful or carnally objectified to the physical through porn; this suppression has stripped away the exquisite sensations of learning the presence of mind/body/spirit and the art of sacred sensuality/sexuality as one of the many pathways to enlightenment, the human body as a tool through inner alchemy.  There is a great power in this alchemical process this that seems to be purposely concealed and diluted.

Has this information and more that we may not ever know, been hidden to keep us locked into a disempowering cycle?

To shut down our potential of aligning the neo cortex with the reptilian brain or hindbrain, in doing so activating higher centers and the evolution of our DNA?

By using breath, it can open up energy pathways to what’s known as nirvana, or Turiya which rise up the energy channels. Breath is connected to Orgone and being grounded in the body with the many tools that connect one to it, allows for clarity of life to present itself and know what truth is internally by accessing the higher states of awareness.

Perhaps allow the memory of Aeon Sophia to re-surface. I urge you, don’t take my words for it, feel what is true to you.

It’s simple and doesn’t have to be convoluted to a point of breaking down logically, for this is a sensory, intuitive and intelligent living force that is a cosmic play of life as we experience it.

If one just lets it happen, the intentionality is enough to open the doors to the inner realms and taking the step will be up to each person who is willing. Using the will with intuition becomes the sacred marriage, doing with being, ultimate alchemy.

I have a book/movie idea that I am writing that ties into this. Fingers crossed.



Raging Chakras

I started playing with my Chakras when I was 22…..

Falling asleep one night, my hand was irresistibly drawn to my lower abdomen. This area was warm and tingling. Like a vortex sucking me in, it started murmuring of unlocked emotions and memories.
I started moving and spinning this energy center, clearing and invigorating it.

My intrigue awakened.

At this time my belief system was of no desires or cares for anything religious, or spiritually inclined. I had been spiritual when I was younger but was delving into a more atheist belief system at 22. These esoteric beliefs were way to airy-fairy to my overly intellectual mind.

Until this spoken night.

I then started witnessing issues in my life dissolving, amazing occurrences were starting to happen and a whole new world was developing around me.

I thought to myself

“I want to know more about this”

I undertook research probing the depths of the complex and different theories. Here is a tiny synopsis of what I have come to, as with anything I post discern with your own informed deliberation and research.

Energy, Baby:

Chakras are contained in our energy fields, otherwise known as Life-Force, Prana, Chi, Electromagnetic, Aura, Orgone and many other names.
These fields are like a blueprint of energy for individuality. In them are cone -shaped energy center that hold a vibration and color, like a human rainbow, these are the chakras.
An energetic library, they contain every experience, thought, and emotion we have  had, when out of balance they can cause disorders, distortions and disease on many levels.

There are 7 main chakras, and according to varying theories up to 36 more that are within our bodies.

I am going to breakdown the main ones for y’all. ; )

Root Chakra:

Adrenal Gland
Located below the perineum. Related to physical well-being, survival, instincts, primal, earth energies.

Mental and Emotional Issues: Survival, territorialism, wars, violence, oppression.

Physical Issues: Low body disorders. Including hips, legs, immune system, feet and ankle problems.

Ultimate Potential: Self Groundedness

Sacral Chakra:

Located 2-3 in above sacrum. It relates to creativity, sexuality, pleasure and relationships. Our energetic life force and sexual energy, Kundalini, is said to be contained here.

Mental and Emotional Issues: Blame, guilt, control, shame, regrets.

Physical Issues: Any Sacral area disorders. Including male and female sexual organs, sexual dysfunction, reproductive issues, urinary and bladder issues.

Ultimate Potential: Self-Creativity and Healthy Sexuality.

Solar Plexus Chakra:

Located in the solar plexus region, 2 inches above the navel. It is related to personal power, self-control, confidence and courage. Sometimes people refer to a feeling in the pit of their stomach, indicating this chakra.

Mental and Emotional Issues: Low self-esteem, low confidence, indecisiveness, anxiety, nervousness, doubt.

Physical Issues: Any solar plexus area disorders. Including indigestion, digestive problems, ulcers, diaphragm, liver, gall bladder, kidneys.

Ultimate Potential: Self-Empowerment

Heart Chakra:

Green and Pink
Located in the chest It relates to our emotions, love, compassion, empathy and heart. Where the term heartbreak stems from, as love is felt directly through here.

Mental and Emotional Issues: Anger, fear, jealousy, coldness, lack of compassion and empathy, fear and feeling unloved.

Physical Issues: Any heart area disorders. Including heart problems, respiratory, breast problems.

Ultimate Potential: Self-Love

Throat Chakra:

Located in the throat, connected with expression, will, speech, fluent thought, honesty, independence.

Mental and Emotional issues: Criticism, judgement, communication and listening problems.

Physical: Any throat and mouth area disorders. Including addictions, throat cancer, sore throat, neck problems.

Ultimate Potential: Self-Expression and Honesty

Third Eye Chakra:

On forehead, 1 in above bridge between eyebrows. Regulates mental, intellectual and intuitive functions.

Mental and Emotional issues: Concentration, overly rational, over/under intelligence, manipulative, close-mindedness, impatience.

Physical Issues: Any upper mental and brain issues, including depression, sinus problems, migraines, neurological disorders.

Ultimate Potential: Opening to Self-Awareness and Intuitive Capacities

Crown Chakra:

1-3 inches above the top of head, like a crown. Oversees our wisdom and highest mind coming through, said to connect to universal consciousness.

Mental and Emotional Issues: Separation, over-reacting, hopelessness, rigid thinking, over-intellectualizing.

Physical Illness: Paralysis, stroke, skin disorders, multiple sclerosis.

Ultimate Potential: Selflessness and Connectedness

Playing with your Chakras:

Take a pendulum and hold it over one of these centers and see which way it is spinning.
To charge: hold your hand over and spin it clockwise, visualizing white light or the color of the chakra infusing it.
To clear: move hand and energy counter-clockwise, while also scooping up and out. Imagine any emotional patterns, gunk and debris being released into light, happiness and health.
Old memories and pain may surface, let it be, you are healing.

How do your Raging Chakras feel?


Update as per request:

Different schools of thought have different theories on the way each Chakra is supposed to spin correctly. The higher the Chakras on the body, the faster they spin. Some schools of thought propose that they alternate from clockwise to counter-clockwise starting from the Root Chakra. There is also the theory that when healthy they all rotate clockwise at a certain speed.
To open and clear spin counter clockwise, to close spin clockwise.

In my experience I have found with myself and others, that each person will vary. Blocks within the chakras will sometimes be seen with the pendulum as going straight across, diagonally or a lopsided circle, sometimes very slow, sometimes very fast.

You have the key to unlock your Chakra’s secrets.

I believe that intention and the power of the mind is one of the most powerful healers. You can send your own healing energy in with a pendulum or with your hand, infusing as I have mentioned above with visualization. If the ways I have mentioned don’t feel right to you, this is where your intuitive process comes in, you can “speak” to your chakras, feeling into them and allowing them to show/tell you the best way for them to heal. You will come to find an understanding.
There is an innate intelligence behind everything.

If you would like more guidance into working with your Chakras, I can assist you in reading them.

My contact is listed in the Purpose and Dream Creating page at the top.