Meditation = The Zone

I meditated the first time when I was 9.
Sitting on my bed, I was reading a book explaining the technique.
“Sit with your eyes closed” this book said, “Let your mind take you into a quiet place.”
I closed my eyes and was immersed into a world where I was soaring as a bird, diving into the water becoming a fish.
Coming back to reality I thought,
I liked that.
Taking the art of it up again when I was 24,there are many forms I have practiced.
Meditation has been my staple over the past few years. When I stick to it, my life dramatically reflects a positive inner state.

Examination has been my source of calmness, strength and gathering of energies. It is by going within the stillness, that I have found myself to exist on a higher level than what I perceive.
I have been able to harness my true self and create more abundantly the life I choose to lead.
Forming around the inward state of being.

Inspiration calls me deep in the throes of quietness.
It is within the nothingness that anything is created.
In the stillness where life itself takes form.
The awareness of unthinking remembers who I am.

Meditating brings about a clarity that transcends thought.
Where being is here, there, everywhere.

My everyday imagination tends to take me places far away, analyzing, dreaming and reflecting.
The point of meditation is to slow the mind down to consciously create life.
It raises consciousness by seeing through the ego filters and stories of life. A gain of comprehending thoughts, actions, words and intentions.
When meditating, I literally scan myself and the world, to acknowledge how I am affecting the web of reality.
I process and come into stillness.
The result is a grounded space of tranquility and acceptance. An understanding of what I create and who I am.
This space allows me to be conscious of self, in a way that supersedes ego.

I sit silently to hear myself clearly.

Meditation has taught me self-discipline. Discipline to gain the level of living that I wish to attain.
Self discipline in doing a daily meditation.
Eating foods that are good for my body, not just what I crave.
Staying in on a weekend to build upon what I am creating.
Not balking and running away, when things falls apart around me.
Being active, not reactive.
Discipline to keep myself in check.
Having the urge, noticing the urge, overcoming the urge.

It’s all about balance, yo.


Getting in the Zone

While the normal idea of meditating is sitting in silence, or chanting for hours at a time. Those are not the only form.

You may not realize when you are meditating. Meditating is being conscious in a place that becomes “the zone”.
Being in the zone is like the flow, the inward reflection of the outward living “flow”.

Think about the moments when you lose track of time, when existence stands still. You are present, yet know a place of awareness higher than this life.
Unthinking, just knowing.

That is being in the zone.

Any time you are creating, doing or being and slip into the zone or
dreaming state of awareness is meditating. When athletes speak of being in the zone it is also a form of meditating.

Other examples include:
Cleaning and organizing
Making music
Artists creating
(I will elaborate more on visualization in my post about manifesting)

Meditating is about you. Taking time to YOURSELF, the space that is you and your life.
While we are lead to believe the opposite in our world, self should always come first.
If you aren’t clear, grounded and engaged, how can you immerse yourself in what you bring to life and others?

A practice to try is sitting in silence for 7 minutes every morning when you awake. With the intention of allowing thoughts to surface and dissolve into nothingness.
Eventually, a space of quiet is the result.

How do you feel when you are through?


There are so many varieties of meditating, and finding one that suits your needs may take a bit of time. By practicing you will find your groove, if you need facilitating, you know where to contact me.

Purpose and Dream creating

Hello Consciousness!

Right now, I am staring at a 70 ft HUMUNGOUS Brachiosaurus.
Its skeleton at least.
We are sitting in a private little set up we’ve created, music and all, in the Chicago O’hare airport, on my way to,
I am not privy to tell you yet, it’s a secret.

I will let you know when we get there.

In the meantime, I would like to expound a bit, let you in on our travels and the whirlwind we have experienced.
Even if its just in mention.

Vail, Vail,
to you we hail……
we had an incredible time visiting you and your breathtaking views. You are a sight to behold, we were held spellbound by your snowbound beauty and had quite the time viewing your canyons, rivers, and snow-capped peaks.
In fact, we find it fascinating that there are places so beautiful, tucked away inside the Rockies, you are a breath of mountain fresh air.
You cleared our heads and grounded us in your wonders.

As for what we experienced while we were there.
Our amazing host, we’ll call him “Bobby”, provided an excellent space for us in a spacious condo right at your foothills,
I literally strolled out and trekked up the mountain, amongst the few feet of snow and pines.

Yes, some could say the attitude is rather ritzy in your lands, Vail, and we, well we made it a bit artsy that night.
Its all in perception, right?
At this restaurant, I asked for us all to have crayons, and so we started a meal of art, reveling and sharing in one everyone’s presence, while coloring what came to us.
With my fun inner child already playing,
I ordered a banana split for dinner.
Along with the real meals that were top notch,
my banana split was PERFECTO!

As for us.

Onward, Ho

It is time for us to go to where consciousness guides us.
Consciousness, awareness, higher and higher.
completely guided by source.
Call it intuition or higher knowing, whatever it is it flows through, urging and guiding into where is needed to be.
Not in a plan, because it seems within this everflowing current, things are continually shifting. We have surrendered to the power of it, and what would seem impossible to get done within two days, we managed without the blink of the eye.
Including getting a passport, selling a car and ALL that entails, funding, purchasing tickets, organizing, repacking and shipping home what wasn’t needed . Several appointments and taking care of much business.
After I had altitude sickness.
A whirlwind, like I said.
We loved and appreciated every moment of being in Colorado.




“Go within to find the answers to yourself, for you are the gatekeeper to your domain.
In the silence the answers will come, only in the quietude can you hear the essence of life, the vibration of heart, the energy of soul.
Let the shadows surface and find solace in the source.
Use these perceived faults as tools, to move forward and uncover self.
Take part in the evolution of self.”
5/11/2009 journal

We are driving through the breathtaking mountains of colorado, its incredible what we have already experienced and as much as I would like to go into that, instead I am taking you deep, deep into where my journeys have taken me.

Through my psyche.

It is an experiental experience to know oneself, a trial and error of creating.

My happiness and expansion have come with dedication to pushing myself out of my box.
Evolution = change= progress=wisdom accrued
Its in the uncomfortable, unknowing, changing places that true growth of self takes place within me. I now take it upon myself to consciously evolve, stepping into these unknowing places, inviting the forces of change to bring it on, show me what I can now become.
Push through

Adventuring started for me almost 2 years ago. At that time I was in a space of feeling stagnant and unhappy with where I was. My life by all means was stable, and comforting, yet there were inside and outside forces that seemed to be pushing me out of this comfortable life.
I could feel deep within me that there was more for me to experience, for me to become. I felt a undeniable loss of what I felt I had built up, yet it wasn’t so much a loss more so a need to gain.

I didn’t know where I was headed except for the first two destinations, and took off.
Life opened up, and I was shown through dreams and my heart of where to go next.

Following the flow.

I went from Montana for a month and a half, to New Mexico for 3 months, to Sedona for a weekend, up to San Francisco for 3 weeks, to Hawaii for 2 and half months, back home for a month, out to NYC for 5 months, back home for almost 3 months, then to Berlin for 5 weeks, home to process and start afresh for 4 months.
Haha, as I just read that I got overwhelmed.
The experiences within my travels have been more of an integration into the places I am residing, not as a tourist, instead living where I settle for the time being.
It is my dream to experience myself as a local wherever I journey to, I think that is where I truly learn.
Its not always glitz and glamour, but what in life is?

In leaving it became my entrance into the cocoon, weaving my chrysalis all around me, protecting me, keeping myself in convalescence.
I didn’t know where I would be going from my first stop, but I knew that I would never again be what I once was.
My transformation was inevitable, and however long it took, when I was through I would emerge with a knowing of self beyond all of what I defined myself with at home.
This was a gateway, a transformative period of surrendering my old way of belonging and saying goodbye for good to the girl within me.
leaving all behind in search of self

if I can’t look within, at all that is within, how can I possibly bring it out?
I had dreams, visions and epiphanies of being this woman

I had to ask myself the simple question.

who am I outside all that defines me?
what is it I need to release?
how do I bring myself authentically into the world?
how to overcome MYSELF?

Becoming whole took the courage to undermine parts of myself.
go within
breakdown to break through.
Digging down felt unpleasant, looked unpleasant at times, emotions, flashes and memories that I did not on any level wish to acknowledge.
I am fine, had been my key phrases throughout my life.

I wasn’t fine, my self wasn’t where I wanted to be.
Push, dig, unravel, reweave.

“Everything can be a possible course of action, show love to yourself, know that you are in a healing space.
The process has been unfolding up until now, and these are the steps to undo your negative patterns that are deeply rooted.
Just BE, know that all you wish for will come to fruition.
Your purpose will become more clear, your mind more sharp as you move to take your seat within and regain full power of self.
Trust the process, let it unfold”
5/22/2009 journal

Not an easy process, digging into my subconscious patterns

I had to contend and come to terms with my ego.
Realizing that much has been created out of my wounds. Self protecting and putting guards up.


I spoke into the empty spaces once worked through promising myself


A beautiful, tragic and eloquent process of aligning myself with who I truly am.
I started to feel this solid presence of my inner self, knowing that with cultivation this part of me would become unmistakeable.
slowly, and little by little I was transforming my chrysalis becoming stronger, heavier, almost ready to emerge.
A new energy emanated from within, a hum of clarity, a knowing of a deeper nature.
Building my foundation out of unshakeable stone, instead of crumbling sand.

When issues surface from time to time, I look at them with compassion and give myself the space to work through them, with love I tell myself its ok to process.
Situations and people that represented old parts of myself started to either fall away, or transform into a space where I could flourish.

I have emerged from my cocoon, with intelligence, depth, inner beauty, strength, knowledge of self and self love, and I love every minute of what I have experienced.
What I have come into within is so much more than any amount of money, career move, or partying could have brought me.
A journey within that forever changed my life.

A level of knowing myself permeates my existence, whether or not it is accepted.

I know who I am.