Author: Nicole Ciccarelli

I speak my truth through means of this artistic expression. I write with the intention of bringing thought-provoking musings through profound soul-searching and questions. A lifestyle site with topics ranging from travel, anecdotal thoughts, health, meditation, yoga, economics, environment and esoteric teachings.

Underground Waking Dream

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Where does dreaming end and living begin?

What is the imagination’s purpose, is it to create or dream awake?

Visions of my ideal future surround me, as the dreamer I am, yet I feel disheartened when they don’t come to fruition.
I lose my trust in myself and ability to create, and it triggers a thought of, perhaps I don’t deserve what I am dreaming.

And that is simply preposterous.

The truth is, we live in a world where we have to give into the system. One that can sometimes damper even comprehending dreams.
Think about this deeply.

We are entrenched in a paradigm that serves money.

Does that create happiness?
Where does happiness stem from?

If one doesn’t feel good about themselves, nor know who they are deep down, all the money in the world will not save them.

 

Here is where the balance of the physical and non-physical must occur. We live in a physical reality, one that puts material abundance highly. Materialism can create beauty, but when it serves that which does not know itself, what’s the point?

Money nor a degree do not create character and wisdom…

Life and achievement of one’s passions, knowledge lived and dreams does, through the up and downs of the dualistic nature of our universe and what is known as a human life.

What is truly important?

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Which brings me to the idea of supporting the arts. For without true creativity our world would be devoid of aesthetic beauty, meaning visual, audio, sensory, tactile, design, writing, and everything that we base our aesthetic pleasures upon.

The artists are where our world finds solace in appreciating creativity, right?

It would be my ideal, as I’m sure many other artists to follow our creative impulses, feeling we could indulge in them while make a fantastic living off of them.

Sometimes, when us underground artists grow into the above ground, into the eyes of the many, people wonder…

Where were you hiding?

Working within an establishment that supports that which will make money, all the while the genius minds that create new paradigms can be cast aside.

To what?
Work for something that does not support dreams.

I will make my Underground Waking Dream happen, with or without support from anybody. With passion, conviction and love in my heart for the path I am walking.

By supporting the many facets of local talent and arts, not just what is pop and uber-popular, creativity is honored and appreciated and brought into the forefront of our culture.

Without dancers and listeners where would musicians be?

Without readers where would writers be?

Without patrons of the arts, artists can become disheartened, losing their drive to bring forth fresh talents. Which becomes unfortunate for the masses, for there are brilliant minds that could be forsaken if not properly supported by our establishment.

Don’t you see, the underground are the roots to where the above ground’s blooms sprout from..

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What would you do if you felt supported to live and become your dream?

xo,

Nicole

My Underworld

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A cycle has completed, its finality brings with it complexity and understanding of my dark and light nature. The illustrious owl perched at my side, illuminating shadows to see more clearly.

This time period was a lifetime of its own.

On New Year’s 2007,the Owl appeared, with his yellow, penetrating eyes, beckoning me to view the inner depths I was seeking.
“Be Careful” were his wise words to me as I plunged into the depths of my deep and murky underworld.

Nothing could hide from his intense stare as we traveled the river Styx in search of all the ghosts and demons that were lurking.

This world was fraught with seduction and temptation. A place where phantasmorphic figures rose as distorted illusions that seemed oh, so, real. I would gaze around this illusory world to phantoms represented by societal perceptions as well as my own ideas, ones I held as superficial truths of who and what I was.

No longer

My truths became highlighted as inner workings of subconscious patterns were revealed. Deeply imbedded cycles within me, family and society came to my waking mind. Bringing the information back to the conscious surface, I would then be strengthened with the knowledge of what I had accrued.

“Trust Yourself”

This thought was my anchor, even when I couldn’t fathom understanding it.

Many experiences over these years were bright, light and love-filled, giving me a point of reference to base my truth upon. Receiving glimpses of an enlightened state, I would come back to the reality of patterns instilled within me and humanity. Disheartening and downright suffocating at times, haunting and deliberating moments of facing shadows of myself and others.
Occurrences and people were a mirror to shadows of mine, realized over the past 6 years. My subconscious would attract what I needed to see to be freed of my inner limitations and illusions. Coming up for a breath, I would have complete epiphanies, my world would shift around them to witness the glory of an awareness far beyond my consciousness.
Witnessing the beauty of who I was uncovering; the real me.

The depths while murky held rapture within themselves, a shroud that when the light shone in became illuminated strength.

Giving gratitude the whole time as I knew that when experiencing pain it was my epoch of strengthening.

The owl made its presence known again 3 years later, while I was immersed in a world of soul seeking and a vision quest. It’s wing almost brushing my cheek, I thanked it for showing its presence so visibly. Just when I thought I was complete with this underworld, after a lapse of time I heard the owl whisper in my ear.

“Go Deeper”

Through the years I dove farther into the swampy muck of personal and collective patterns. My purpose to cut free karma from myself and the underbelly of our reality, that which no longer serves me and those surrounding me.
Being sucked into the depths, like a puzzle, I began to make sense of the patterns displayed.

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Morphing and shifting, these ghosts of patterns would show up around different turns. Tempting me with their ideas, sucking me into their spheres, giving access to what they deemed important. With the power of who I was, it was my choice to feed them or watch as they vanished from my existence with the upsurge of inner realizations.
My scythe was love, acceptance and surrendering. I would cut them free and remind myself, with the owl perched on my shoulder…..

“Remember who you are, that is your unshakeable force. No matter who or what any person says, you are you and that space will never be forsaken. For that is your individual essence in this multifarious existence”

It was only an illusion.
That is not real,

To me.

As though they never were in the first place, these ghosts of disillusionments caused by conditioning to deep extents would all but vanish from my perception. Like phantoms of the past they became nothing more than distant memories.

Overwhelming at times, with the seductions and temptation of focusing on ideas, emotions, experiences, thoughts and conditions that I knew deep down were not my highest truth.

Ultimately; The illusions of Ego.

The presence of the owl has made itself known again, this time letting me know this cycle is through. Surfacing, I have an understanding of who I am.
My underworld traversed, ghosts released with intentions and motives that mirrored these old parts of me witnessed to their extinction.
I have come out of the other side of Hades, awakened and aware, knowing and clear.

The realization of the illusion has penetrated my waking mind. In that there is a part of me laughing, this game of life has become quite easy.
I know that only empowerment, positivity and love will come from this, with strength, knowing and trust in myself. The ways in which I gave my inner power away into illusions are now in place of inner empowerment, feeding me and those around me with the goodness of life.

For it was my choice what I fed all along.

 

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I understand this as part of my Kundalini’s journey.
A process aligning my subconscious, conscious and superconscious.
My filters and experience reconditioned to bring me insight into myself and others. And that to me, is the most enlightened I can become; right now.

All is of my choosing and I take full responsibility for what I think, do, speak and experience. I am no longer victim, martyr, scapegoat or any of the other roles I may have created from these murky patterns that have been freed.

I am at a clear slate, where any and everything can be created. It is up to me what I feed, love and focus on, give to and create.
With consciousness comes the great responsibility to BE, as we were all created to BE.

Over time aware of the awareness behind thinking, the all-pervasive existence that just is.

Questioning from this place when thinking,

Are you fear or love based and do you serve my highest?

This is where questioning the ego comes full circle.

Is it ego questioning ego?

Or is there a higher intelligent consciousness in place?

Yes, the dark will fall, and in its place is illuminated grace.

Whoever said it was a quick process to become awakened to our inner enlightenment?

xo ,

Nicole

Of course, the detailed experiences will be lit up in my book….. 😉

Kundalini Awakening 2

Kundalini Awakening

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“Kundalini is the evolutionary mechanism in man. It is slowly but inexorably leading mankind towards a higher state of consciousness…Kundalini performs no less important a function, not only for the individual but for the whole of the race…It is at work every moment of our lives in building the brain and the nervous system, and it is therefore most necessary for the safety of mankind that some people deeply interested in it arouse this power so that the world might benefit by their experience.”

Kundalini is a life-force of its own intelligence and design. When it becomes awakened it comes with it a great, overwhelming power that clears and re-patterns many systems, mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It is the internal force in the body to heal itself.

I truly believe that when awakened it naturally starts to re-pattern the DNA. Like Kali, this energy seeks and destroys all that is not in the highest divine alignment of the individual who is awakening. Kundalini allows one to wake up to higher consciousness and potential. It imparts within the ability to look above and beyond, at times superseding duality in our 3d reality.

A radiant, powerful, light-filled energy that is red/orangey/pinkish. When awakened this energy rises up through the channels also known as nadis or meridians, into all the chakras and finally the hypothalamus. Over time filling the entire body with its energy. This awakens and lights up the pineal and pituitary glands while also starting to rewire the whole nervous system.

Kundalini energy sits at the base of the spine like a coiled cobra. It is an inexhaustible life force that has been spoken about in texts from the inception of written word, far beyond any one religion or spiritual practice. Carl Jung and many others have addressed it, referring to it as the superconsciousness.

“The researcher, philosopher-scientist Gopi Krishna, proposes the existence of a region in the human brain, a faculty of supersensory perception normally dormant, which can be awakened to activity by certain practices. Quantum physics has confirmed that the mind of the observer influences what can be observed (see “The Reality Tests,” Seed Magazine, June 4, 2008).

It is the next process within humanity’s evolution.
The energy is said to come from the same energy as our reproductive systems, and when worked properly with another it can build the Kundalini. When working on awakening (enlightenment) it is said to happen through abstaining from sexual contact with another, at first for building it within oneself. This is due to energy rising upward for evolution, downward for reproduction.

“The process of evolution is a continuous one. One cannot say positively at what height man will arrive ultimately, but the next higher stage after human consciousness is a state of higher awareness so extraordinary and blissful that the recipient of this grace is lost in wonder when he or she attains to it. What do you call that consciousness? We can call it superconsciousness, the Turiya state, Nirvana, or even a divine consciousness.”

“Both genius and illumination are the outcome of the activity of Kundalini. When this mighty force enters the conscious centre the individual is then not only illumined but also possesses genius.”

“All spring from the evolutionary impulse in the human body…The goal of all religions is certainly one, and that is to have a higher state of consciousness”

“Great ideas come through individuals, and they can change the world. But an individual is also the product of a group. We lack in great prophets in this age because the society is allotting the place of honour to material progress.”

“The condition of society is the greatest impetus in the production of religious (Kundalini) geniuses. The present world lacks in something that is favourable to the growth of individuals of vision.”

Awakened individuals are like sparks in the collective consciouness, spurring awakening in others. As we are moving into higher brain cognition as a race, we integrate our neo-mammalian brain structure with the awakening of our hypothalamus.
As we all awaken more, it will create a structure for us to move beyond mammalian tendencies. Thus it will raise the consciousness of the lower brain functions to more wholly serve our earth and race.

The energy, when worked upward, is completely mind-blowing. There are many ways to facilitate it. My journey consisted of a 6 year process from recognizing it, to full awakening, to the repatterning of my nervous system. Which has not been the smoothest process.

I could feel my Kundalini the first time when I was 23. Ignoring it for a few of years, I felt it awaken subtly in New Mexico. This consisted of my shadowy patterns surfacing and my lower back was constantly in pain.

From there I resided for a bit in the powerful lands of Hawaii, of the smoldering and alchemical volcanos, metaphorical for the process I was in. I underwent a semi-awakening, that stopped at my throat. Then, a couple of weeks later my Kundalini became fully awakened. This rising happened while I was driving around the big island.

I was consciously breathing deeply when everything went white. Blinded, I had to pull over. My limbs were completely numb with an intense buzzing feeling. I felt the flow travel up into my head, like a circuit as though it went up and out of me.

There was a lapse in time of 20-30 minutes while the powerful and intense energy worked through me. It was blissful, yet overwhelming, like an electrical current running through me. My mind was in an intense hyper-conscious mode, which included incidences with a friend afterwards where all the electricity went out talking about the experience, twice.

It takes a couple of months up to 12 years for a Kundalini awakening to come to full fruition. I still go through rewiring from time to time it comes in waves. My experience with it is not one of a completely disciplined spiritual/monastic life, as what is suggested. At times it has caused mishap when I go too far out of balance.

The purity of everything lends itself to me, I’ve noticed that which is not of my purest source falls away from my life. As it works through me, the intelligence of it wants to experience the life I lead. Through my range of emotions, while building enjoyment, enlightenment, happiness, while creatively expressing through me with music, writing, dance and interaction. A balanced existence of the feminine force of physical with the masculine non-physical.

The ultimate alchemy.

It’s now easier for me to bring the energy up on command and go into the place of whiteness (samadhi), which feels like orgasmic bliss throughout my whole being when I reach it.

I could go on this topic post after post, but instead I’ll let you be guided to your own process and research within it. Below is a breathing practice for you if you’d like, as well as articles I highly suggest.

How is your Kundalini?

xo,

Nicole

Kundalini Breathing

I will give you the breathing exercise, one of the many out there that works for me to get in touch with Kundalini
It consists of visualizing on a deep inhale in your abdomen filling up with light. Either white or the pinkish orange I addressed. On every inhale picture the energy filling with light and on the exhale visualize it starting to rise in two channels like a double helix or figure 8’s through every chakra. Do it slowly as you visualize the energy rising up into your hypothalamus where the energy pours into your Pineal gland. It then pushes upward out of your Crown Chakra Pouring back down the “front channels” up and down the legs and then back again into the “coiled snake”. You can practice this continuously and is a great way to get in touch with your Kundalini.
Hatha Yoga is a gradual way to build it, while Kundalini Yoga builds it much quicker.
The articles below I highly suggest reading if you are interested in more information.

UPDATE as of 2016:

I have found it tremendously difficult releasing some internal blocks and I was recreating unhealthy patterns, which is obviously a part of awakening. Especially in a society that does not promote the type of cultivation and encouragement needed for Kundalini’s awakening process. It has been a challenge at times remembering the power of it and to move beyond what my ego wants into remembering my soul purpose and path. I found instead trying to numb the intensity to fit into a mold that isn’t authentically me, in a world of status quo. Of course, time always allows the energy to transcend any blocks mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually and even I think genetically. Like I said, it hasn’t been the smoothest process, yet I feel so much more aligned with who I am; shadows and light, so as to bring my awareness to its highest state to unlock hidden potential, within myself and others.

 

I gave part 1 of this article in the last post, which is where quotes above were taken from:

ELUCIDATION OF THE GLOBAL HUMAN EVOLUTION OF CONSCIOUSNESS BY GOPI KRISHNA (PT 2 OF 2)

http://yachnayoga.wordpress.com/2012/05/15/824/

Kundalini Awakening Symptoms

Info on Chakras:

Raging Chakras

More Breathing exercises:

Pranayama

Genetic REvolution

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While I was contemplating our DNA structure, a vision came to me. In this vision I watched amoebas turned plants, plants turned fish and fish started crawling out of the sea. As the development occurred I saw reptilians walking into animals and finally humans were born.
The notion came to me, somewhere within the evolution of Earth’s creatures and DNA something evolved as well as went astray.

This is a idea that I am presenting, one that may seem very far off, yet rings close to home.

Think about the evolution of earth and how things arose from amoebas to what we are now as the highest cognitively functioning species. Could it not be said that perhaps within our evolution a mutation occurred very far back?
That we are a product of a mutated genetic inheritance?

Could it be that our lower emotions ie. rage, aggressiveness, fear, paranoia, anger, misanthropy, negativity, hiding, domination, lying, aggravation, frustration, irritation and more are variations of this mutation?

I think fear is a genetic mutation within the DNA of our species and other species.
It first occurred within the evolution of some fish (think piranhas) becoming parasitic and vampiric in nature.
I believe this mutation is like a virus and spread and has consciousness in and of itself. That it becomes more intelligent to keep thriving, many strains have developed from it.
This mutation comes in displays of domination, control and fear evolving as life did on our planet. Part of this is understood by our reptilian lower brain also known as the Paleo Mammalian brain, which we all contain in the Basal Ganglia region of our brains.

I understand there must be a balance of keeping our ecosystem in harmony with carnivorous forms through fear, yet, we are not in harmony with our planet, if anything we are the parasites upon it.

Seemingly inherent within our biological nature, the domination factor that perpetuates fear also resembles the animal kingdom.

A hierarchy.

This factor keeps us cycling through collective patterns over and over, reinstating the paradigm we’ve been in. These mentalities keep us separated from our neighbors, other species, nature, plants and animals, viewing everything as a possible threat or enemy.

I ask if any of this has shown up in your life experiences?

Furthermore, is it our responsibility to raise the consciousness of these lower vibrations within us and the world ?

Think about the viruses that have seeped into our species, do we perpetuate viral consciousness by feeding into these thoughtforms?

Is it for us to acknowledge that many of these thought-forms have shown up as ailments and viral thinking within our collective consciousness, could they be representations of ailing unconscious patterns that we are just ignoring or “band-aiding”?

I think cancer and other diseases are collective unconscious patterns we are collectively not addressing.

I believe in the future, the evolution of our species will evolve far beyond a point of needing medications or vaccines, and that we will heal these viral thought forms with the power of individual and collective mind. I believe we have the capacity to heal our body and beings completely, it is a dormant power.

In order for that to occur, we have to first acknowledge our somewhat parasitic nature upon our planet and accept it for what it is. That means taking responsibility.
Once we take responsibility for what we have incurred, we can then take the steps to correct and transcend our collective actions.

As we do so we move from a dominated hierarchical structure into a balanced ecosystem with a more harmonious consciousness that gives and takes. It is up to us to be the loving caretakers of Earth and all her species.

I believe this REvolution links directly with the formation of the EGO.
Individual and collective EGO is moving into amore unified collective consciousness as it evolves.

This evolution is awakening us to our individual power and potential, to then raise and connect to the greater collective mind and consciousness. As we work it together, we expand more in our capabilities and understanding.

It’s in my opinion that what is proposed as junk DNA is actually intelligent, higher realms of possibility within our species. Which includes the inception of language and words to vibrationally create our reality. “It is in fact a holographic, fractal bio-computer of mind-boggling capability”.

Could it be that the Kundalini, Shakti, feminine divine consciousness is the key to awakening our DNA and evolving quicker?

That a part of our DNA contains a consciousness that is awakening the remembrance of our inter-connected nature to our genetic structure; including all on our planet and universal matter?
I truly believe it is the inner power contained within all to become the greater race we are meant to;

Real Re(Evolution)

I ask you to think about what I have theorized, after all, that’s all this is, is a thought put into logos.

How awakened are you to your DNA?

xo,
Nicole

I highly suggest you read the first part of a two article series in the link below about Kundalini. I will get into Kundalini in more detail in the next post as well as my own personal experience awakening to it, while giving ideas to start working it within yourself.

This will be a 3 part post.

Elucidation of the global human evolution of consciousness by Gopi Krishna(pt 1 of 2)~ Aaron Asphar

Article explaining the virus scientists have discovered in our DNA structure:

Ancient Virus thrives in DNA

Great article on evolution of DNA where quote above was derived from:

http://catiestewart.com/2012/05/18/fractal-dna-quantum-computer/

Post I did that ties into this
Divine Feminine Christ Consciousness

Divine Feminine Christ Consciousness

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The Divine Feminine Consciousness is arising again. It is unstoppable in its frequency, growing and beaming onto our planet, its essence is purity. The reverence for it brings wisdom of inner divinity, love and clarity. The Divine Feminine Consciousness is the birthing place for all of creation, it is the breeding ground for all we know and don’t know. A place of love, understanding and compassion to be re-aligned to again, on our planet.

This knowledge can no longer be controlled nor hidden. That which has been controlling knowledge of our individual truth and power shall be relinquished. So that we may collectively awaken to our individual sovereignty and collective continuity.

For thousands of years the controlling powers have been keeping this ancient wisdom and knowledge of the Divine Feminine from us. From Shakti in Hinduism to Sophia in Christianity and Gnosticism to Shekinah in Judiasm. We have been lead surreptitiously into truths that do not honor the divine feminine inwardly and outwardly. This does not mean being a female, it is information and energy that all humans carry the knowledge of deep in our genetic memory.

This energy is coming in waves to our collective, lulling us into a subtle transmutation as it heals. Allowing those who seek to awake from the slumber we have been put under. This flaming light brings with it purification; like a fire to all that no longer serves our species highest divine evolution and design.

Love is the un-mutable force of the Divine Feminine.

It is the time in human history for the merging of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine consciousness to unfold. This consciousness shall help seed our race, allowing us to be the guardians and loving caretakers for our planet, people and all species.

We can all open up to the many ways the divine feminine consciousness may flow through. Set the intention to get in touch with it and allow it to subtly move through you, through the top of your head down  into the tips of your toes. Imagine yourself like a tree, growing roots deep into the earth where you soak up the nurturing healing qualities of her and let that flow through you.

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xo,

Nicole

Christ consciousness for Christianity and also refers to Kundalini: Christ Consciousness

The Shekinah from Judiasm: Image of the Divine Feminine

The Holy Spirit Feminine Aspect of the Godhead: Holy Spirit/ Shekinah

More I just read about the Divine Feminine energies from a different source:

Divine Feminine

Image above from http://www.exohuman.com/wordpress/2011/01/the-fall-of-the-wisdom-goddess/

Empathic Repatterning

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Re-Patterning takes the form of releasing the shadows of self, so that the light can shine through. Opening up a can of caterpillars so that they can transform into butterflies. I believe this is one of the greatest dis-ease antidotes, as the physical body is the last place illness manifests. Studies show that re-patterning can actually shift DNA. I wish to share a snippet of my process through it with you.
While I try to refrain from labeling, for I am much more than any label, I call myself an empath, for you to gain more understanding of what I am explaining.

My body always lets me know everything that is going on, it never lies to me and I trust it explicitly. My body lets me know through intuitive feelings what is best for me, these feelings also let me know when things are positive or negative for the future or beyond. I know from my experience that my thoughts have their own frequency and resonate at different levels. Being empathic, I am able to feel exactly where my body holds every thought and feeling. The positive ones feel light and expansive, the negative ones feel like pin pricks or bullets. I don’t always understand all my empathic responses, I only know when they are released I feel amazing. When I have worked through a pattern, there is a clear feeling in my heart, stomach, back, neck or wherever I was having empathic residue.
Many of the feelings in my body are not necessarily mine, as an Empath, I take on for others what they wish to heal and sometimes cannot do themselves. Also called a lightworker, I take other’s hurt, fear, anger, insecurity, agony on to be transmuted. Without the proper release these wounds (Ment. Phys. Emot. Spir.) of others sometimes become lodged patterns within me.

My re-patterning process entails sitting in meditation. I then focus on any negative thoughts or feelings in my body and listen closely. Then something will surface, almost as though a whisper. Instead of shrugging off what I hear, which my ego wants to do, I let it come up and be heard. I will receive a memory or flash of understanding tied to a feeling and pattern of energy. Sometimes when the feeling is mine, it’s a limiting thought pattern, a belief I had held onto about myself or the world, such as “I don’t know how” or ” I don’t care”. While my conscious mind does not believe what is presented, my subconscious mind may be manifesting situations based upon these old belief patterns. After acknowledging and feeling these patterns of mine and sometimes others, I then accept, embrace and surrender them to the moment. Like little bubbles, these patterns expand and pop into the quantum field of awareness. When it is someone else’s energy lodged within me, I’ll usually get a glimpse of that person, hear their voice, or feel their presence as I release their energy. There have been times, before I knew that I was an empath that I would get very sick and not know how to release the energy. Knowledge of energetic frequencies and my own personal boundaries has allowed me to stay grounded and learn how to process for the benefit of me and the person I’m healing

I then go within and re-pattern with a belief I hold true for myself, or send love and light to it, if it is for someone else. This process includes monitoring of my thoughts and emotions, to constantly reinstate an evolving belief system.

 

After re-patterning I am in a place of higher consciousness, with awareness of the interconnectedness of everything. It’s in this place that my ego dissolves and I remember all the triviality that can seem important DOES NOT MATTER.
Stillness, silence, reflection;
Space and time slip away into a place of non-duality, where positive and negative become non-existent.
Everything just is.
Awareness behind awareness, I am a little speck glimpsing it.

All that exists is knowing, a knowing far beyond me, yet a part of me. A place of infinite love and intelligence, which is where I find my Divinity.

Attaining a broader perspective within this consciousness is what drives me to be. It takes for me to remember and bring this awareness into every aspect of my life, I aim to see it reflected in every part of every moment.
The glimpse of it can almost always be seen.

There are many ways to attain this state, every religion, philosophical and spiritual discipline have their forms, the techniques may be different, yet the place of existence remains the same. In the many attempts to gain higher consciousness the one truth is, only within is where it is found.

I am who I am constantly creating myself to be.

xo,

Nicole

Repatterning

For more about being empathic, especially if you may be an Indigo/Crystal or Starchild (you know who you are), here are more posts about this:

Vibing with an Empath
Intuitive Opening

DNA and Epigenetics

Gold Star Sardine Bar

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One is transported as soon as they enter, into a vintage world of glitz and glamour.
Hidden away in a high-rise on Michigan Avenue Gold Star Sardine Bar was a 1940’s Cabaret bar. Throughout the years it boasts of having performers such as Frank Sinatra and Liza Minelli among the many. This place is more than the title states. Let me rephrase, it’s not a bar, it’s an experience.

One that leaves an imprint of decadence.

Both times at the exclusive, intimate parties I attended I felt as though I stepped through time into a bygone era interwoven with a modern twist of a cabaret in full swing. The decor is swanky and if you smell closely, you can almost catch a whiff of cigars and stiff martinis.
Everyone takes their place in this dimly lit time capsule. An interplay of a theme that we all embrace, amazing music and fun at it’s finest. Time turns back as we lose track, into our place, our space, our moment. The music is our warm embrace, as we become the shining stars; socializing and dancing in the old listening room.

As it was back in the day, it becomes an international gem yet again.
Each time a unique vibe is created. My first experience included music from Detroit native Dan Bain, he appropriately played us housey, disco, funky sounds, with a bass that got us moving and grooving. It set the perfect tone for the day turned evening.
Then Waifs and Strays played, 3 NYC natives whose housey and fun sound captivated everyone in attendance. The dancing, socializing and laughing ensued until the music stopped. At that point the spell we were all under was broken, we remembered it was a moment in time, time now for reality.
My second experience was more subdued, with sounds that were deep and classy. We were graced with the presence of Clockwork, composed of two musicians from Milan, Italy. This time the stage was set differently, creating a sensuous air of dancing, which didn’t stop until the clock broke midnight.

The maximum capacity at Sardine Bar is 50 hence Sardine, which only leaves room for a small gathering. In the past people would line up out the door to get in. Now, it is no longer open to the public, these are private parties thrown by MiM.

Engraved with the memory of these vintage dreams.

xo,

Nicole

Some photos courtesy of Tasya Menaker

Cosmic Charge, Baby

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Oh sun, sun, sun…
I have a love affair with the sun. We are long lost lovers and when we unite, it illuminates me inside and out. I long for its warm embrace in the cold, dark winter days. Now that it is warming up, I yet again feel lit up…

The sun is our essence, where we on this little planet have arisen from. The life force of our infinitesimally small solar system in a complex, transfinite universe.

This force has been studied by some of the greatest scientists, including two of my personal favorites Nikola Tesla and Dr. William Reich.
Nikola Tesla created a device entitled a Cosmic Ray Motor to harness free sun energy in the early 1900’s, stating that “This new power for the driving of the world’s machinery will be derived from the energy which operates the universe, the cosmic energy, whose central source for the earth is the sun and which is everywhere present in unlimited quantities.”

I will tell you from my personal experience, in balanced doses, the sun is one of my favorite medicines. It heals on atomic to energetic levels and everything in between.

A balance with this beautiful source can strengthen us all in our life force.
Like a battery charge, it wakes us up to awareness, if we wish to fill up on it.

“What you eat, what you drink, who you interact with, thoughts, emotions, perceptions (where you are in your consciousness), builds or diminishes your Ka. Deliberately accelerating this pranic body, ascends your physical body, and in turn ascends your consciousness.”- ZaKaiRan

Prana is life force, the force behind our own force, that which comes from the sun, surrounding us and all living things. Also known as orgone, chi, ether, tachyon, addressed in ancient to modern theories worldwide it’s said to be consciousness in and of itself. The Ka body is known as our light body, or etheric double, that the prana life force fills up, we can gain this charge through cosmic sources.
According to Dr. William Reich, orgone is scientifically measured and found in high amounts in more alive, natural settings and living food sources. It’s this source that is absolute healing for our bodies, Dr. Reich created ways to harness this for health.

 

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Laying out nude in balanced doses and letting the sun shine where the sun doesn’t shine is good for the body! If, of course you are able to find the privacy to do so, 15 minutes on each side is ideal. If not even letting it shine on your face, or arms for a bit helps vitamin D production.
To charge, visualize the sun lighting up all parts of your atomic structure with light, sending it to your energetic bodies as well.
Happy Spring Equinox!!!!
If the sun is out, Illuminate yourself!

xo,
Nicole

nikola tesla
Hira Ratan on Sungazing
Prana Orgone Energy by Osho

Posts I have done that will elaborate on many of these theories : )

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raging chakras
intuitive opening

Express Yourself

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As I read the article I have a link to below, about 90 Iraqi students being stoned to death for their expression, my heart hurts. It pangs me in a way of sadness and realization that basic human liberties are constantly at stake in our world. As far as we have come up the evolutionary ladder, there are atrocities that occur that face us all with our primal, controlled and conditioned natures.

This is not just “over there”, albeit different, it’s very present “over here”.

Many major religions state that there are certain ways that are accepted and others that are not. I understand the guidance point of not hurting another and living a life that helps others. Yet, how can it be that there are billions of variations of humans and only one way of worship is accepted by God/ Allah/Jesus/Jehovah whatever you want to name the force of the universe?

If we were all meant to think and be one way, wouldn’t this God just make us all the same?
God is not conditional, humans are.
There is the question of free will I’d like to pose….
Is there free will or is our will based upon an integral nature created from biology, sociology, psychology, genetics and education?

It’s easy to judge those who are different. As humans we have all felt that type of rejection at some point in our lives, while casting that judgement upon another at some point as well.

This rejection, or rather avoidance of rejection is what causes mass conformity. By feeling that we have to be/act/speak a certain way to feel accepted and liked.

Who doesn’t want to be accepted and liked?

Can we guide one another more lovingly into a mindset that empowers us all?

With this underlying biological and psychological need to feel accepted as part of the group, expression can become what one thinks will be accepted, in the process one’s free expression can become curtailed.

THE BOX

We are all expected to be a part of a box on some level, to take part within group thinking. These boxes can be seen according to gender, religion, culture, class, age, race, profession, etc. and are deemed by what is socially accepted and what’s not. When what’s not accepted occurs, labels are placed to then categorize into yet again another box, or outside the box.

A paradox.

How come ideas, thoughts, actions that are not part of mainstream are sometimes rejected and boxed out, to then be accepted in the future?

I am not one thing, nor can my beingness be explained by any one categorization, can yours?

If we let other’s judgement infiltrate our existence, we’ll never feel free to

express ourselves

Free expression is essentially creativity and imagination at work. In an ideal society, judgement of free expression would be obsolete if not harming anybody.
Acceptance of another’s expression negates control, fear of differences, group conformity, gossip and negative backlash. Which is what we sometimes witness when one is different or challenging traditions and the system.

When we think about those who have challenged throughout the millenias from Jesus to Aristotle, Plato, to Newton, Tesla and Einstein, can it not be said that our race has benefitted from questioning and expressing outside the norm?
Do you think technology would be available if we all thought and acted the same?

Break out of your box : )
In connecting with another’s expression and perception we learn. If your expression is outside of the norm, who cares?
It may inspire another to express a part of themselves that was previously hidden.
Express Yourself, whatever it may be, I accept you.

What is your free expression?

xo,

Nicole

90 Students in Iraq Stoned

Acid vs. Alkaline

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“According to the research of Dr. Enderlein, total healing of chronic illness only takes place when and if the blood is restored to a normal, slightly alkaline pH. In case you missed it, let me say it again…

Total healing of chronic illness only takes place when and if the blood is restored to a normal, slightly alkaline pH.”

The American diet, is to say the least, overly acidic and completely imbalanced. The rapid rate that heart disease, diabetes, cancer and illness have overcome our nation makes one ponder the effects our foods are having on us. The U.S. is one of the unhealthiest and obese first world countries.
The rise in food commercialism leads to profit over value, leaving us with extremely acid forming and cheaply manufactured foods. These include refined foods and sugars, MSG, fast food, aspartame, trans fats and white breads.

A healthy body is slightly alkaline with the blood measuring approximately 7.4, this level means it’s just slightly more alkaline than acid. Given our culture and diet, many people are not eating enough fresh alkaline vegetables and fatty acids necessary to balance internal PH levels.

Balancing the PH levels heals all parts of the body. It gives the body a chance to restore and aid the cells and systems in a proper manner, leading to more longevity and prevention. It also allows the body to properly assimilate vitamins and nutrients from food sources, naturally giving the body what it needs.

Taken from Health News:

Effects of Acidity on the body are:

-Tumour cells thrive
-Decreases ability to absorb minerals and other nutrients
-Decreasess the energy production in the cells
-Decreases ability to repair damaged cells
-Decreases ability to detoxify heavy metals
-Susceptibility to fatigue and illness

An acidic pH has many factors including an acid forming diet, stress, emotional and mental issues and toxicity from environment. Drugs and food, immune reactions, or any process depriving the cells of oxygen and other nutrients. The body will try to compensate for acidic pH by using alkaline minerals. If the diet does not contain enough minerals to compensate, a build up of acids in the cells will occur.

“There are two factors that are ALWAYS present with cancer no matter what else may be present. Those two factors are acid pH and lack of Oxygen. Can we manipulate those two factors that always have to be present for cancer to develop and by doing so will that help reverse the cancer? If so, we need to learn how to manipulate those two factors.”

Cancer, as stated in Dr. Simoncini’s research is a fungus and correlates to Candida and other acidic, yeast and fungus related issues. Candida and oxygenating are topics I’ll elaborate on in more detail.
For now, a balance of alkalinity with foods and water is the antidote for many of our health related issues in our overly acidic, quick-fix culture.

Like most theories this is up for debate, the other side states that the body naturally regulates PH. Yet, we are in a new era, to say our bodies are naturally able to regulate PH is somewhat controversial given what our environment and food sources now consist of.
With that being said, try out some alkaline antidotes, do an experiment with yourself by balancing your PH to see how you feel.

Taking this a bit further…

Is happiness tied into PH levels?

Dr. Young states that thoughts and emotions are the most powerful force to create alkalinity and healing for the body.
Acidity= negative
Alkaline= positive

Negative thoughts are acid forming and positive thoughts are alkaline forming. Mind over matter, thinking positively can alter your PH levels.

To test your PH level you can purchase PH strips at any health food store.

Salivary pH Test: Saliva is more acidic than blood, a good indicator of the state of the body and the fluids. The optimal pH for saliva is 6.4 to 6.8. When you awake, spit before anything is put into the mouth. Two hours after eating, on testing the saliva pH should rise to 7.8 or higher. If not it is indicative of alkaline mineral deficiencies (mainly Calcium and Magnesium).
Taking Magnesium as a supplement can boost alkaline levels.

“Urinary pH Test: The pH of the urine indicates how the body is working to maintain the proper pH of the blood. The urine reveals the alkaline building (anabolic) and acid tearing down (catabolic) cycles. The pH of urine indicates the efforts of the body via the kidneys, adrenals, lungs and gonads to regulate pH through the buffer salts and hormones. Urine can provide a fairly accurate picture of body chemistry, because the kidneys filter out the buffer salts of pH regulation and provide values based on what the body is eliminating. Urine pH can vary from around 4.5 to 9.0 for its extremes, but the ideal range is 5.8 to 6.8.”

Alkalizing remedies

Here are a few water recipes that help me become alkaline quickly. Since alcohol is highly acidic, these are also great hangover remedies.

1/4 tspn or more of aluminum free Baking soda, 1/4 tspn sea salt and 1 Liter of spring or distilled water. Refrain from tap water even filtered, if possible.

Lemons turns alkaline once in the body: 1/2 Lemon or more in 1 Liter of Water
You can also super alkalize with 1/2 lemon and 1/2 tspn baking soda in 1 liter of Water.

Dr. Simoncini states that sodium bicarbonate (baking soda) and water is super alkalizing and healing.

Alkaline/Fluoride Cleanse:

I was skeptical about using Borax (Boron) for the first time when I developed a spot of Rosacea, nothing worked for it until I used a paste I made with Borax. After more thorough research into this naturally occurring compound, I made my first drink with it, adding a pinch in a liter of water. This lead to not only ridding the spot of Rosacea, I also noticed increased clarity of thoughts, more focus and energy.
Be forewarned, when doing a fluoride cleanse the first time you may experience headaches and nausea. Drink this for no longer than 3 days at a time with a few days off in between:

PLEASE BE ADVISED TO DO AT YOUR OWN RISK

1/8 tspn of Borax (20 Mule Team) 1/4 tspn of Baking Soda (aluminum free) and 1/4 tspn of Sea Salt (Iodized preferably) in 1.5 Liters of spring, distilled or ionized water.

Alkaline/ Acidic Foods

The ideal balance is a 70/30 ratio of alkaline foods to acidic foods.
This list is to give you awareness so that an appropriate balance can maximize your health.

Sprouts are extremely alkaline and sprouting vegetables and beans is highly recommended. Eating fermented foods such as Kim Chee, Sauerkraut, Kombucha and the likes help to add healthy flora to the digestive track.

Taken from essenceoflife.com

ALKALIZING VEGETABLES
Alfalfa
Barley Grass
Beet Greens
Beets
Broccoli
Cabbage
Carrot
Cauliflower
Celery
Chard Greens
Chlorella
Collard Greens
Cucumber
Dandelions
Dulce
Edible Flowers
Eggplant
Fermented Veggies
Garlic
Green Beans
Green Peas
Kale
Kohlrabi
Lettuce
Mushrooms
Mustard Greens
Nightshade Veggies
Onions
Parsnips (high glycemic)
Peas
Peppers
Pumpkin
Radishes
Rutabaga
Sea Veggies
Spinach, green
Spirulina
Sprouts
Sweet Potatoes
Tomatoes
Watercress
Wheat Grass
Wild Greens

ALKALIZING ORIENTAL VEGETABLES
Daikon
Dandelion Root
Kombu
Maitake
Nori
Reishi
Shitake
Umeboshi
Wakame

ALKALIZING FRUITS
Apple
Apricot
Avocado
Banana (high glycemic)
Berries
Blackberries
Cantaloupe
Cherries, sour
Coconut, fresh
Currants
Dates, dried
Figs, dried
Grapes
Grapefruit
Honeydew Melon
Lemon
Lime
Muskmelons
Nectarine
Orange
Peach
Pear
Pineapple
Raisins
Raspberries
Rhubarb
Strawberries
Tangerine
Tomato
Tropical Fruits
Umeboshi Plums
Watermelon

ALKALIZING PROTEIN
Almonds
Chestnuts
Millet
Tempeh (fermented)
Tofu (fermented)
Whey Protein Powder

ALKALIZING SWEETENERS
Stevia

ALKALIZING SPICES & SEASONINGS
Chili Pepper
Cinnamon
Curry
Ginger
Herbs (all)
Miso
Mustard
Sea Salt
Tamari

ALKALIZING OTHER
Alkaline Antioxidant Water
Apple Cider Vinegar
Bee Pollen
Fresh Fruit Juice
Green Juices
Lecithin Granules
Mineral Water
Molasses, blackstrap
Probiotic Cultures
Soured Dairy Products
Veggie Juices

ALKALIZING MINERALS
Calcium: pH 12
Cesium: pH 14
Magnesium: pH 9
Potassium: pH 14
Sodium: pH 14

ACIDIFYING VEGETABLES
Corn
Lentils
Olives
Winter Squash

ACIDIFYING FRUITS
Blueberries
Canned or Glazed Fruits
Cranberries
Currants
Plums**
Prunes**

ACIDIFYING GRAINS & GRAIN PRODUCTS
Amaranth
Barley
Bran, oat
Bran, wheat
Bread
Corn
Cornstarch
Crackers, soda
Flour, wheat
Flour, white
Hemp Seed Flour
Kamut
Macaroni
Noodles
Oatmeal
Oats (rolled)
Quinoa
Rice (all)
Rice Cakes
Rye
Spaghetti
Spelt
Wheat Germ
Wheat

ACIDIFYING BEANS & LEGUMES
Almond Milk
Black Beans
Chick Peas
Green Peas
Kidney Beans
Lentils
Pinto Beans
Red Beans
Rice Milk
Soy Beans
Soy Milk
White Beans

ACIDIFYING DAIRY
Butter
Cheese
Cheese, Processed
Ice Cream
Ice Milk

ACIDIFYING NUTS & BUTTERS
Cashews
Legumes
Peanut Butter
Peanuts
Pecans
Tahini
Walnuts

ACIDIFYING ANIMAL PROTEIN
Bacon
Beef
Carp
Clams
Cod
Corned Beef
Fish
Haddock
Lamb
Lobster
Mussels
Organ Meats
Oyster
Pike
Pork
Rabbit
Salmon
Sardines
Sausage
Scallops
Shellfish
Shrimp
Tuna
Turkey
Veal
Venison

ACIDIFYING FATS & OILS
Avocado Oil
Butter
Canola Oil
Corn Oil
Flax Oil
Hemp Seed Oil
Lard
Olive Oil
Safflower Oil
Sesame Oil
Sunflower Oil

ACIDIFYING SWEETENERS
Carob
Corn Syrup
Sugar

ACIDIFYING ALCOHOL
Beer
Hard Liquor
Spirits
Wine

ACIDIFYING OTHER FOODS
Catsup
Cocoa
Coffee
Mustard
Pepper
Soft Drinks
Vinegar

ACIDIFYING DRUGS
Aspirin
Chemicals
Drugs, Medicinal
Drugs, Psychedelic
Herbicides
Pesticides
Tobacco

ACIDIFYING BEVERAGES
Beer: pH 2.5
Coca-Cola: pH 2
Coffee: pH 4

xo,

Nicole

Related Articles:

Dr. Simoncini’s Site

Q & A with Dr. Young

Natural Cancer Treatments

Disease and Alkalinity

Fluoride Detox